Justme and my Midnight Thots

grumping

2010-04-23T22:50:00.001-04:00

always drama at work
always.
i'm tired of it.
it never goes smoothly for any extent of time.
there is always something going wrong.

and i guess that is to be expected
i just think that the things going wrong would be easier to deal with, if i didn't have to work the truck, as well as being boss.

how am i supposed to be secretary, and run the truck, and be coordinator?
how?
it's been bad enough running the truck, and being coordinator
and now i have to add secretary to that listing? at least for awhile?

i was not made to work constantly.
i am not one of these people who are addicted to work.
i want my time to do garden, and yard
and most of all, i'm sick and tired of having to disappoint someone else because of my stupid job controlling my life.

yes, i'm grumbling.

fellowship

2010-02-15T21:02:00.001-05:00

this has been a very good day, today.

started out with the fact that i did not have to cover the truck today, and so i took off.
i've been ready for a day off. these 60+ hr work weeks are getting to me.

and so i had company this morning
woke up about 7 30, and realized, hey, i bet i could talk them into stopping in here on their way past.
made a phone call, and the answer was, well, yeah, we can do that.

Allen King and Jason Cole spent some time with me this morning.
twas a very nice visit in my estimation, here's hoping they enjoyed it too.
Jason was a hero and changed the hallway light bulb for me. Thanks Jason!
i got proof of the visit, 3 pictures were taken.
Allen got to take the edge off of his net withdrawal while he was here.
i was able to find a cord to pass as a cell phone charger.

kc wasn't a snob
c never once called about anything from work, today.
not once!
beth called, family time on friday evening is being planned.

after they left, i downloaded the pics
(ok, what's the diff btw download and upload? did i upload the pics from my camera to the computer?)
and then uploaded one onto md
(i think i used download and upload correctly)

and then i started messing around with the old laptop, the one that it says it doesn't have a hard drive in, and i know well and good it does. turned it upside down a time or 5 while trying to figure out how to take out the hard drive and put it back in. i couldn't take the screws out. they were in good and tight. but when i turned it on, it booted right up. slow as molasses, but it was there.
so i moved some of the stuff from that one to my new one.
and read some old information. twas interesting.

then it started snowing. i actually had off and didn't have to be at work.
so i watched it snow.
then went outside in it for a bit.
drove to klines, not sure why, guess maybe i just wanted to stretch my horizons a bit.

and for some reason, i was hungry for comfort food.
maybe because it was such a nice day, no grumps, no problems.
and i made poached eggs in milk. considered stewed crackers, but decided poached eggs n milk would fit the ticket quite nicely.

and now, i'm ready to start back to work tomorrow.
today was my day of rest, and fellowship.

it's been a very nice day.

mongo

2009-10-03T20:30:00.002-04:00

day 1 of mci class is in.
it's been interesting.
i had forgotten aj heightman's famous saying of "mongo like 'cookie.'"

difficult

2009-10-01T23:42:00.001-04:00

i find it difficult to believe that it is oct 1 already.
where has the year gone?
and why so fast?

fire

2009-07-29T21:13:00.000-04:00

As some of you know, i washed an ink pen with my good clothes. And dried it in the dryer as well.
That has me pretty well irritated. Those work shirts are 29.00 apiece, and the ones that got ink on them are the newest ones i got.
So i googled how to get rid of ink stains. Didn't find a whole lot of hope. Decided to try homemade soap. So this evening i smeared a whole washer load of clothes with homemade soap.
And i followed a net tip.
Soak a rag in clorox, and put it in the dryer and run the cycle.
So that's what i did.
Left the clothes to marinate in the soap, left the dryer running.

The shadow and the little one were here, and the shadow wanted to play "shadow's beauty salon"
waiting room in the deck room, salon in the restroom in the deck room.
get a book to read in the waiting room, till your appointment is called. Come into the salon, with the door shut and get smeared with perfume and lotion and lip gloss. (hey, they were having fun...i was secretly rolling my eyes)
the little one and i both had our appointments completed, and the shadow was changing the wording on the paper to have it be the little one's beauty salon.
i came out, opened the dryer
thot to myself, wow, that clorox took the shine off the drum
reached in for the towel, and there was no towel
so i looked a bit closer
There was soot all thru my dryer, on the floor, and NO towel. none. NONE.

there is soot on the dryer vent outside the house.
there is soot in the lint trap
there is soot everywhere.

i could have come out of that little BR and found the kitchen in flames

i'm going to blame that fire on the clorox soaked rags
not on a full lint trap

so don't ever put clorox soaked rags in your dryer, no matter what the internet says!

btw, if i clean out the soot and stink, will the dryer still work?
or do i need to go buy another one?

weird

2008-09-08T22:47:00.002-04:00

i had the weirdest dream last night

i was somewhere, i didnt recognize it
and there were other people there, too
and this guy started shooting everyone
i was walking to my car, to leave,
i wasnt worried, didnt think he'd shoot me,
but i wanted away from it all

well, i got shot
and for the rest of the dream, i was back inside the house,
rolling around on the floor
from room to room, not sure why
trying to stay out of his way, and trying to stay out of his cohorts' way
and a coworker of mine was there too
and his wife
he made no attempt to cover for me, or to help me
but he made no attempt to bring attention to me either

maybe i'm more worried about hosp politics than i thot i was.
or maybe i should be worried i'm walking into massacre by contemplating the job.

disappointment

2008-08-30T22:52:00.002-04:00

i am thoroughly disappointed
i didn't realize i was looking forwards as much as i was, to the plans for tomorrow.
i'm trying to tell myself that i need to take the focus off my disappointment, and focus on the human aspect. it's not working too well, just now, tho.

unfathomable

2008-08-02T23:44:00.000-04:00

my brain can't fathom something this evening
its just beyond me, right now.

i apparently have a fan club
apparently there is this 17 yo mennonite girl (who looks like miranda lambert the country singer) in lack's territory who thinks she knows me
who thinks i'm the cat's meow (my own words there)

here's the story
i was with lack this evening on a call
and their emt started talking about "buffy"
buffy always asks him who the medic is, and if its me
she tells him that she knows me.
and she told him the story how when she went to take her driver's test, this guy there said he was good friends with me, he knows me well. he was an older guy, gray hair, and they had a nice chat regarding me.

well!
woody used to work in the comm center, and he now works for the driver's license photo/testing center. but, he by no means is a "good friend" of mine. and he certainly doesn't know me well. i ran into him there, several month ago, when i went to have my driver's license pic taken, and that's the only reason i knew he worked there. he left the comm center several yrs ago. acquaintance, yes, but wow. just wow.

so now i'm flabbergasted
either he brought up the subject of me, because this girl is a menno girl (and so am i)
or she brought up the subject of me, but good grief, if she goes around talking to me, to every person she meets?
and if he brought up the subject of me, to her, does he do that to every menno girl who comes in?
oh my

i'm not sure i like this

now, she can talk about me with lack's crews all she wants, i don't particularly mind that
cause they are ems, and she is asking about someone in ems, and so there is a connection
but to go talking about me to some random guy she most likely won't ever see again?
where is the connection?

anyways,
i told him to tell her i said hi
he's quite aware that i have no idea who she is.
i tried finding a connection, how does she know me?
no, i don't know her parents, he doesnt think that she or her family were transported by ambulance at any time.
the only thing that i might be able to think of, is he said she goes to the same church as rosina did. rosina was a menno girl who ran with lack's amb for a short period of time. (she went and got married!)

and if woody calls me a good friend, and knows me well? that has got to be her exaggerating what he said. i can't imagine woody saying something like that.

and someone needs to plug the hole in my balloon. i feel like i've been deflated. just how can i be that impressive so as to ...? you'd think i oughta be flying high, so much so that i need my sails trimmed. but i'm not. i'm feeling deflated. how the heck could i be such a role model? and to someone i don't even know? and that i had no idea?

it just blows my mind

stupid

2008-07-28T23:31:00.000-04:00

i came back to central today, around 3 30 ish, i guess
joe was making veggie soup, and it sure smelled good
he asked, do you want some soup?
my answer, no, i'm not not hungry, but it sure smells good

dave was sitting at the bar, eating a bowl of soup
about 10 minutes later, while i'm talking to him, i got myself a glass of water
and then reached above the frig and pulled down the cheetos
dumped out a handful or two, put the bag away
brought my cheetos over to the bar and started to sit down

and something hit me
i said, "now that was highly stupid of me
i said i wasn't hungry, and what do i do?
i get a pile of cheetos to eat
that was just plain stupid!"

and so i promptly put my cheetos back in the bag
and drank my water as i chatted with dave.

dreams

2008-06-21T23:28:00.000-04:00

still looking

i've decided this searching for a car has got to be the same as searching for a hubby

maybe i'm too picky
maybe i should just settle for a car that doesnt have one of my must haves, just so that i have the stability of a steady garage. i haven't had that for about 3 years now.

i feel like the credit card commercial-- i want it all, i want it all
that commercial came on today, i turned to lori and said, that's me. she started laughing. says she was just thinking the same thing. she's been listening to me grump and search for a week now.

the two must haves that i can't seem to find in the same car, are remote start, and power seats. you would THINK that a car with remote start would have power seats.

why remote start? cause i've always said, that if a guy would consistently clean my car off in the winter, get it nice and warm for me, so that i didn't have to go out to a cold car, and that i didn't have to scrape ice off windows, i'd snap him up in a hurry and hang on to him. so, since i can't have a guy do it for me, i'm going to take care of myself, and buy me a car that does it for me.

i found the car with remote start that is in my price range, and in my mileage range, but it doesn't have power seats. and i'm short enough that i have to have that power seat. i'd almost rather give up my dream man (remote start) before giving up power seats. sooo. do i buy the car with no power seats, but with remote start, just so that i have the stability of a garage? where they will come to the hospital and pick up my car for me, while i am at work? and bring it back? that stability would be wonderful.

do i settle for stability? or hold out for what i want?

my settle for car

troubles

2008-01-29T23:32:00.000-05:00

2 yrs ago we were worried about the very thing that has finally happened

just wish that someone had taken us a bit more seriously then, or that we had pushed a bit harder

today

2008-01-26T21:41:00.000-05:00

its been a lazy, quiet, comfortable day today
headed out to the station to download two pictures, only found one of them there
but when i got back, they had both been emailed to me

had quite a nice phone conversation
come to think of it, thats the only time my phone rang today,
(except for the station billing question early this morning.)

stopped at klines, got a few things and cashed the bday check from my aunt
put my chix legs in the oven and cooked them
ate a sandwich
paid a few bills, wrote a letter
hung out on md
tormented kc

its been a good day.

favorites

2008-01-04T23:53:00.000-05:00

today has been quite the day at work.
several interesting things happened.

best of all, is that i got to play, and didnt even have to do a chart :pleased:
not for bls, not for als
oh what fun!
i do believe i travelled the fastest to a call today, as i ever have
in fact, i came up behind phil, (county EMA), and shoved him out of the passing lane into the slow lane so that i could keep travelling. course, at the time i didnt know it was him, but i don't suppose it would have made any difference had i known it was him.

and the 2nd best thing is that i get to a hospital that i havent been to in ages
and who should i see but one of our former ER nurses.
one of my favorites, i must say
i got a huge welcome, and i even got a hug

bill was ER nurse when i was doing my student time, and then he quit to work at bon secour
and when i was working for roaring spring, right after i got my medic, i ran into him there.
and then he came back to our ER for awhile, and left again
this time to work agency.
and today, i see this guy with his back turned, thru the partially open curtain in the bed next to the one that i was putting my pt into. and the thot crossed my mind, that looks like brenneman. and wouldnt you know, it was!

its been a good day.

2007

2007-12-30T23:18:00.000-05:00

what impact has 2007 has on my life?

2007 has been a horrid year, prob the worst ever
-i've lost friends, net friends that i considered real life friends
-i've opened up slightly and in the process became even more alienated
-i've lost membership, and been reinstated
-i don't know that i've learned anything that i was supposed to have learned
-i've refused to let anyone get any closer than they have been, in fact, i've pushed them further away
-kc came in limping and i almost killed him while trying to take care of him

2007 has been an ok year
-was to colorado for a wkend camping trip, first jet plane experience
-met a few md people in real life
-found an angel in disguise
-interviewed for bossman's job, and it was given to someone else, (thankfully)(but at least i got to interview)
-the bat incident turned out ok
-jco hugs, i need them
-kc's injury healed on its own

maybe 2008 will be better
maybe i'll profit from my experiences

cold

2007-12-05T22:16:00.001-05:00

kc wanted outside today
which is fine
only prob is, it was snowing and cold

so, i left him out
he stepped in the snow
and he turned right around and came back in
before i ever shut the door

and a few minutes later he wanted out again
so i opened the door for him
he went outside, and i shut the door
if he wants out, he can just be out
several minutes later, i looked out
and he was under the blacksmithshop
he loves to spend his time there
about half n hour later he's at the door, wanting in

5 minutes later he wanted back out again
so i opened the door
and he just stood there
looking out
he turned around and came back in
i shut the door
and he gave me this most grieved meow

i said to him
but i can't control the weather

kc had no more requests to go out the rest of the day
he must have decided i knew what i meant when i told him it was cold.

comfortable

2007-12-02T23:09:00.001-05:00

kc is curled up on my feet
he just makes himself comfortable

and i don't mind a bit

shopaholics

2007-12-02T00:00:00.000-05:00

welp
i should have gone to klines and gotten the stuff i needed
or waited and got it on tues night on my way home from work

instead, i went to walmart this afternoon
and spent almost 175.00

i got myself a portable cd player and some sort of interesting thingy that i can plug in and it plays across the car radio
which is really nice because my car cd player eats cd's and the tape player doesnt work right either, i've tried the tape that plugs into a portable cd player. and my original cd player is broken.
and i got three christmas cds. i like christmas music. i buy more christmas cds than any music.
so, of course, i sat in the parking lot and put batteries in the cd player and in the other thingy, and plugged them together. and then i fiddled with the buttons on that thing, and figured out how it worked. and wonder of wonders, it actually works!

got a few games for the kids for christmas
got my grocery supplies that i went for and water
got the last 35mm film developed

i was good tho
i headed towards the book section, then stopped myself
i'll be spending enough money, i don't need anything else that i don't need

frigid

2007-11-30T23:14:00.001-05:00

it is frigid and windy outside
but that's ok
it fits the inside

kc

2007-11-27T23:26:00.001-05:00

that goofy cat of mine

i got up this morning, and made myself a sandwich before i left for the station
he wanted out
he kept going to the deck door or the kitchen door, meowing
and coming back to me with a question in his meow
he wanted out
and i wasnt abt to let him out, because i would be ready to bring him back inside before he wanted
(i don't let him outside when i'm not home)
so i was mean, and told him, no, you can't go out.

he's been doing real well, lately, abt not running out the door when i leave
today, he was at my feet as i headed to the door
under my feet, actually
meowing
looking up at me

he wanted out

so, i walked to the deck room, he's right at my feet
and i got out the carrier,
he walked right into it
and he went along to the station with me

this is his favorite place in the office
today, he hopped up there, while i had my back turned
-while i was in the middle of copying charts-
i had to remove him

and when we came home, no more grumpings to go outside

i headed up to the BR come bedtime
sat on the pot, turned the tub water to a trickle for him
he likes to lap the running water
i often play zuma on my phone, as i wait for him to finish
of course, then, i continue playing till i lose
and as i'm sitting on the pot playing zuma on my cell phone,
he is curled up abt 6 inches from my feet
with his head facing me
waiting for me to finish

and right now, he just jumped up on my back
he's kneading my back
pretty soon he'll lay down on my back
his butt against my ear
his tail down over my shoulder

in other news, krista got herself a very nice 8 pt this afternoon
michael got his yesterday, a 4 pt
both of them are quite happy
and i think dave is prouder of them and their buck than they are.
he played the teaching father very well, these past 2 days.

traditions

2007-11-26T23:38:00.001-05:00

we made candy today, while the mighty hunters were out in the rain
had a few misshaps, of course

if i ever suggest making 2 batches of peanut butter cups, beth is going to yell at me
we made peanut butter cups till they were coming out our ears

my nephew was the only mighty hunter today
and beth says, his buck just stood there and said "shoot me"
first buck, 4 pt, one shot and down
he is thrilled to pieces
we've been teasing him abt having a black and blue shoulder
tis funny

its odd, seeing the next generation come along and enjoy the same traditions we had when we were kids
the candy making on the first day of deer season is a new tradition, brought by beth and joanna, tho
but the kids sure enjoy looking out the window watching the deer run across the pasture up thru the fields and past dave's shack, same as we used to.

reeked

2007-11-26T00:19:00.001-05:00

ok, so today, well, yesterday by now, was certainly different than saturday
i felt like i reeked of smoke and burnt flesh all day today
no matter where i went, i smelled it
the ER assured me that was not so, so i took their word for it
but i still smelled it

and i went to harrisburg twice today, back to back
and before i got back, darryl was headed to harrisburg as well

long

2007-11-24T23:08:00.001-05:00

i do believe that today has been the longest day at work in a long long time
it just took all day and then some to finally get to 11 am, then to 2 pm, then its not even 4 pm yet, and finally it was 6 20 and darryl will be here in abt 15 minutes.

goal

2007-11-22T22:37:00.001-05:00

76. thanksgiving dinner today was yummy
77. played skip-bo after the dishes were done, that was fun
78. my furnace keeps my house warm
79. i can afford to buy oil to keep me warm
80. kc's leg appears to be fine, he still owns the house
81. the bat didnt do any more damage than make me paranoid
82. jco hugs
83. reconnecting with old friends
84. snail mail
85. email
86. voice mail
87. my baked corn was good today
88. and the cake and cookies went over very well, too
89. plans are all made for monday's candy day
90. i'm well on my way to reaching my goal
91. sheila and krista are spending the night with me sunday night
92. angels in disguise
93. my md friends
94. md
95. bossman and boss jr
96. the trailblazer
97. the colorado trip this fall with 2 aunts
98. air travel
99. books
100. walls

there, i did it
100 things to be thankful for, by thanksgiving day.

thanks

2007-11-21T23:26:00.000-05:00

67. lovely weather today
68. kc was able to be outside while i slept, he enjoyed that
69. an oven that works properly
70. family to spend thanksgiving day with
71. my grandfather is able to be a part of the thanksgiving day dinner tomorrow
72. bubble baths
73. electricity
74. snow that brightens dreary november days
75. leftovers

25 more to go, btw now and tomorrow
think i can make it?

comfy

2007-11-21T09:53:00.000-05:00

60. shift differential
61. little boys that guide me in on a 4-wheeler
62. little girls that are ok
63. 4-wheelin up the lane in the truck
64. all night car washes
65. pleasant nights in the ER
66. comfy beds to crawl into

challenge

2007-11-19T22:10:00.001-05:00

53. packing meals saves money
54. live365 radio. right now i'm listening to Christmas music
55. indoor plumbing
56. kc sleeps at my feet while i am sitting on the toilet, either that or he curls up between the toilet and the wall behind me.
57. usb sticks- tis very nice to be able to carry my projects with me where ever i go
58. work- i've got a good job
59. road signs are wonderful things

snow

2007-11-18T16:04:00.001-05:00

i was travelling up the mountain on my way home from church
i rounded the bend, and the whole mountain side was orange
it contrasted very nicely with the snow
yellow and orange leaves are still on some trees

i wasnt able to get a pic of it, but i did get a few pics on my camera phone, of the first snow fall for the season
yes, i was driving as i took the pics.

i'm ready for snow, i believe!

dinner

2007-11-18T15:28:00.000-05:00

dinner today was quite the interesting affair

i stopped at klines to get a head of cabbage and some loose sausage
i wanted noodles and cabbage, i've grown to like that, and thot that sausage would be good in it
well, pauletta didnt have loose sausage, so i settled for 1/2 pound hamburger meat

came home, fried up the hamburger, dumped in some peppers n onions, and a variety of seasonings that i have in my cupboard
and found out that i didnt have noodles
i had angel hair spaghetti, and some huge round things, (rigatoni, maybe, i'd have to go look at the box)
decided that spaghetti would be more like noodles, so i dumped a pound in the water
don't ask me what possessed me to dump a pound in
started frying the cabbage
the spaghetti was done, so i took it off the burner, drained it, and set it on the stove
dumped in the meat mixture, stirred it together
and its starting to clump
and i can see that the cabbage i have wont be enough to separate it
oh pity, i didnt want spaghetti
but i pulled out a jar of spaghetti sauce, dumped it in, stirred it
and dumped the 2nd jar of spaghetti sauce into it
finished up the cabbage
stood there looking at it all
wasnt sure...
...
and then just dumped it into the sphaghetti
it cant be that bad,
after all, tomatoes and cabbage are in veggie soup, and cabbage and noodles are good together

it wasnt toooo bad
i wont be doing it again, tho

prob is, that pound of spaghetti noodles
i've now got about 8 meals in the frig,
i'll be tired of spaghetti and cabbage long before its eaten

i wanted enough noodles and cabbage with sausage for my dinner today, and maybe 2 more meals
that was the intent when i started making dinner
i wasnt intending on feeding myself for the entire wk.

48. i've got a frig to put left overs in
49. i've got food to take along to work, instead of buying fast food
50. i've got a stove to cook on
51. cookies to eat
52. txt messaging w friends

challenge

2007-11-18T00:25:00.000-05:00

guess i'm not doing so well on my challenge, am i?

45. my bro came over this evening and brought subs from the oip
46. we played a game of shanghai, he beat me
47. its saturday evening, and i don't have to work tomorrow

2007-11-14T23:03:00.000-05:00

35. resisted the urge to stop at mcdonalds. (i'm convinced that fast food is addicting)
36. central finished up the cake, which means i won't be eating it
37. its raining
38. my furnace continues to work
39. brain cells that take my thots in a hundred different ways
40. IM conversations to tell me that yes, my brain cells are confused, but that they arent totally confused
41. bottled water
42. warm blankets
43. footies
44. long warm nighties

snob

2007-11-13T22:49:00.001-05:00

28. dad cut down several annoying small trees around my place today
29. i was able to send some cake and some cookies along with him
30. we had a good evening at bingo tonight, it went well
31. kc was glad to see me after i got home
32. it was a lovely lovely lovely day today
33. kc enjoyed being outside again
34. ml called my raisin cookies "addicting"

the funniest thing happened today
i had to laugh
dad wanted me to take him over to carlisle gap to pick up the skidder
so, i went to the door and called kc
kc just sat there, made no move to come in
(usually when i call him from the door, he comes running)
not this time, he refused to come in
so dad decides maybe if he goes outside, maybe that'll scare kc
well, it didnt scare kc, he just sat there watching
and after dad was over at his pickup, i called kc again
and he promptly comes running
that cat didnt want to come in while dad was here!

baking

2007-11-12T21:28:00.000-05:00

did a bunch of baking today
made a carrot cake with cream chz icing
i've never made cream chz icing before, and it turned out pretty good
and then i made choc chip cookies, only i used white choc chips, and i put nuts in
and then
i made raisin cookies

gave abt half of the raisin cookies to my neighbor
the others had nuts and that's a no no for her, just now
but the raisin cookies she said she could eat

now i've gotta figure out who to pawn the rest of the stuff onto
cause i certainly dont want it all myself
i certainly don't need it all myself
if you give me your address, i'll mail some cookies to you
don't think the cake would work so well.

space

2007-11-11T21:56:00.000-05:00

23. a warm house to come home to
24. a coat to wear
25. water to drink
26. i drank no soda today, thats 2 days in a row with no caffeine/sugar carbonated fluid
27. i get to sleep in tomorrow morning

the topics this evening were on gratitude
then krista cornered me after church
michael says we are having thanksgiving at your house
oh?
i didnt know that

so, now,
i guess i'll have to offer to have it here
i dont have a big enough table
and i dont want folks in my house
i've gone back to being the hermit i once was
my house is my space and stay out of it

delicious

2007-11-09T22:20:00.001-05:00

thankfulness

18. the blood drive is done, no more for the station until march
19. the ham n bean soup was pronounced delicious, numerous times
20. i had enough left to bring some along home for 2 meals
21. after a slow start, i did end up with enough of help
22. mick worked for me today, so that i could do the blood drive

challenge

2007-11-08T23:38:00.001-05:00

10. yummy ham with lots of broth for ham n bean soup
11. am feeling better about the amount of help lined up for tomorrow's blood drive
12. the roaster oven worked dandy after i figured out the oven wasnt working
13. the ballot for dec elections is decently filled, i'm ok with what we got accomplished
14. covers on my bed
15. txt messaging
16. i remembered the code to get into the firehouse
17. jen took the bones from the ham with her, which means i didnt have to clean the pan!

broken

2007-11-07T23:46:00.001-05:00

5. was able to process the charts at the station, all that remains for tomorrow is to process the checks
6. got my supplies for friday
7. walking across the parking lot to walmart this evening, it sure felt like christmas is coming
8. i called home tonight twice, with 2 pieces of info
9. instant messaging

i broke kc's laser pointer today
i had clipped it to my key ring, because i was going to take him along to the station
but he wasnt interested in going to the station
his tail went up and the tip went back and forth furiously
and then he headed to the deck door and sat down and looked out
wouldnt even think of looking at me
so i left him at home

stopped at klines, then to the post office
and when i got to the station, i had the back of the pointer
but the pointer itself and the batteries had screwed off the back
so i dont know where it got to

challenge

2007-11-06T22:57:00.000-05:00

i've been grumpy and irritable lately
i've been focusing only on myself
i've been spending way to much time pitying myself

so
its time for another challenge
and just in time for thanksgiving

my challenge to myself
100 things to be thankful for, before thanksgiving

1. my car got inspected today-- finally. (never mind that it cost more than i wanted it too, at least i've got brakes again)
2. darryl drove me up to pick up my car when he came in to work
3. kc sure loves the laser pointer. he and i have loads of fun with that thing. tis quite funny!
4. pain control is a wonderful thing. it calms a person right down

and thats been the extent of my day
oh
not quite
while at central today, ashley put in a movie "the notebook"
that was quite the tearjerker ending

don't

2007-11-05T21:38:00.001-05:00

it's only a matter of time
eventually i'll do something to hurt you
albeit unintentionally
so don't bother getting too close
it's not worth it
for you or for me

life

2007-11-01T23:47:00.001-04:00

i've got a full 3 day weekend
no OT this week

bout time

but the weekend is filled to the brim
mostly of stuff that i dont particularly want to do
but, thats life

early

2007-10-31T22:39:00.001-04:00

guess i could try going to bed early this evening
maybe that might drain some sinus germs out

watched spiderman 3 today at central
even a secular movie is speaking to me of bitterness and forgiveness

miserable

2007-10-29T23:53:00.001-04:00

it appears as if my sinus headache that i've been battling the past few days has decided to get nasty
i've got a scratchy throat, this evening
in a day or so, i won't be able to talk
and i'll be miserable
just in time to go back to work

why

2007-10-28T23:38:00.001-04:00

why even bother trying anymore?

contentment

2007-10-27T22:26:00.001-04:00

it was after 11 pm when i left work last night
then i didnt need to come in until 11 today
which was lovely

i could get into going to work at 11 am
if i could still get off at 7
wouldnt really want to do 11a to 11p

had quite the interesting day today
btw my calls
and scanner calls
and ER work

right now, kc is sitting on my pillow
in my face
purring loudly

overheard

2007-10-15T22:51:00.000-04:00

overheard on the scanner today

dispatcher to PD:
...in a fight with her brother. he wouldn't get off the internet and she thot it necessary to call 911.

options

2007-10-08T22:41:00.001-04:00

dave and i were coming back from gmc this afternoon
he was talking to his wife on his cell
and he says, hold on, i gotta spit
and he puts down his phone, takes the lid off an empty soda bottle
and spits in it
twists the lid back on
picks up the phone and continues his conversation
before long, he says again, hold on, i gotta spit
and he puts down the phone, takes the lid off the soda bottle
spits in the soda bottle
and twists the cap back on
picks up the phone and says, we've gotta invest in a bluetooth.
that way i could talk to you, drive, and spit at the same time.

and i very quietly said, well, there is another option
(as i'm playing zuma on my phone)
never looked up
he says, whats that?
and i said, take the chew out.

he starts laughing
now we cant have that, he says.
and he tells lisa, "jm" says i could take the chew out, but i told her we arent having any of that
and then he tells me, lisa agrees with you.
and they get into this discussion polluting the air with cigarettes, etc.

twas funny
and i just sat there, playing zuma on my phone
listening

hey!!
i cant tune him out, i'm riding shotgun, how am i supposed to NOT hear?!!

ironic

2007-09-30T21:47:00.001-04:00

well, i've written and deleted
written and deleted some more

i've had a few interesting experiences at work
that i hesitate to post, because of privacy issues
hence the deletion of various writings of mine in this posting

its ironic, really ironic i think, that i chose a field where a person isnt allowed to talk abt their experiences
i've certainly had lots of practice keeping things inside where no one else can see them.

so anyways,
i volunteered for 2 more days this wk
dunno yet, if i'll get them or not
i really dont want them
but the shifts need filled

boots

2007-09-14T23:54:00.001-04:00

i finally broke down and bought a new pair of work boots today
i've had these for 5 yrs, and they have served me well
full time, OT, in mud to my knees (that was a fun call )
on ice, in water, blood dripped on them

but today, i blew out the side while on a call
couldnt figure out why my foot was cold, till i looked down
the boots were looking bedraggled anyways,
but i was just too cheap to go buy new boots
60.00 is a lot of money to spend on myself at one time

don't you think it was time to go get new boots?

attacked

2007-09-12T23:39:00.001-04:00

that goofy cat of mine

every time i crawl into bed,
he attacks my feet as they lift up off the floor

every time!

busy

2007-09-11T22:45:00.000-04:00

i've had a busy day today
busy patting myself on the back, that is

started out this morning
stuck an iv in a guy, on a blind stick
with only half assurance that there was a vein there
but that was the best i could find
half is better than nothing, i guess
fully expected to come up empty handed
needless to say, i was feeling very good abt myself

better than the other day, when i felt as if i couldnt hit the broad side of a barn
i hate those days

that was the first pt of mine

the 2nd pt, i looked at his address
**** SR *** N
and i asked him, is that near angelos?
he looked at me, quite surprised
its directly across from angelos

twas funny.
i was making conversation with him because he wasnt in acute distress
i'm quite aware of where #### SR *** N is, and his numerics were abt 2000 numbers N
didnt think i was that good at estimating the numerics on a road, tho!

and pt # 3
horrible venous access, again
i was envisioning multiple sticks with nothing to show for
and once again, on a blind stick with no definitive proof of a vein in there
perfect IV skills
by that time i was quite thrilled with myself
:D

then i decided that i better stop gloating
cause pretty soon, i'll find myself on the bottom of the mountain, if i dont shut up

oh!!!
those iv sticks were in a moving ambulance
like miles always said, the bumps just bump the needle into place

ok, ok
now i'm shutting up!!

jaded

2007-09-05T22:08:00.001-04:00

guess i'm off tomorrow, and working friday night for darryl
i'm tired, it'll be nice to have off tomorrow
but working fri night will be a pain

but thats ok
i get shift differential :pleased:

had the most lame als dispatch today that i have heard in a long time
i have no clue where they fit that into the protocol
ALS for hyperglycemia, pt has dementia so they dont know if he has any other symptoms or not
whoopty do

i got cancelled
as well i should have

btw, i'm on a personal care rant today
that hyperglycemia was both pc and comm center idiocy
but the other call i had today
disp for chest pain, thats all well and dandy, that's as it should be

come to find out, this guy fell, landed on his left shoulder on concrete
and now is complaining of left sided cp, very very tender to touch
and they gave him a nitro
how stupid can you get?
esp for someone who is supposed to have a "little" bit of medical training
ntg is for cardiac chest pain, not trauma chest pain

i think i must be getting jaded
i didnt use to complain abt stuff like that
i'd just laugh

questions

2007-09-02T21:25:00.000-04:00

ARE YOU:
1. A Cuddler? I think so. I would like to find out.
2. A morning person? NO!!
3. Are you a perfectionist? At the beginning of a project, yes. Then as the project continues, I become a procrastinator.
4. An only child? No.
5. Catholic? No, but I did babysit for catholic neighbors when I was a teenager, tho.
6. In your pajamas? In abt 30 minutes, yes, I will be.
7. Currently suffering from a broken heart? No, it’s pretty secure.
8. Okay at styling other people's hair? Anybody want to let me practice? I'm really good at starting IV's tho.
9. Left handed? Nope, I’m half left, tho
10. Addicted to Xanga? Nah, just MD.

DO YOU:
12. Bite your nails? No, but I do bite off broken ones if I don’t have a clippers nearby. That or use trauma shears.
13. Get paranoid at times? Not usually, no.
14. Currently regret something that you have said? Yeah.
15. Curse when you get mad? Not usually. I just crank up the radio as far as it will go, and listen to anything with a lot of drums to it.
16. Enjoy country music? Once in a while, yes, I do. Certain songs more than others, of course.
17. Enjoy jazz music? Not particularly. Not really experienced any, tho.
18. Enjoy smoothies? That’s another thing that I haven’t really experienced.
19. Enjoy talking on the phone? Depends on who I am talking to.
20. Have a lot to learn? Yeah. Too much
21. Have a pet? KC of course. He’s a good cat. You’ll see him in my profile pic.
22. Have a tendency to fall for the wrong person? If I ever fall for someone, I don’t think that I’ll be getting back up again.
23. Have all your grandparents? No, only doddy, anymore.
24. Have at least one sibling? Three brothers.
25. Have been told that you are smart? Yeah, that I have. I tend to not believe it, tho.
26.Have a broken bone? Um, no, not officially! But I still say that my ankle was broken. Oh wait, yes I did break a bone. Right hand ring finger I broke the tip off while trying to unlatch the litter. I had lots of fun playing with that loose fingernail and grossing everyone out.
27. Have Caller I.D. on your phone? On my cell phone yes. Might have to get it on my house phone. Am finding out that I really like caller ID.

LAST PERSON WHO
1. You emailed? Hmmm, dunno for sure. Prob ernie eby, regarding a covering survey.
2. Saw you cry? Been a long long time since I let anyone see me cry. In fact, I don’t let myself see me cry.
3. You chatted on IM with? Single4Eternally
4. You talked to on the phone? Wait, let me check my cell phone. Ahh, ok. My aunt, to find out why they hadn’t showed up yet.
5. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it? Romantic I love you or otherwise? Romantic? Never, and it's prob better that way. Otherwise? Mennomommy, and I guess she means it.
6. Broke your heart? Like I said earlier, my heart is pretty secure.
7. Made you laugh? Neil from the ER today, I guess.
8. You planned a trip with? My 2 aunts. Went the whole way to Colorado and back, by way of Dallas Fort Worth airport. It was fun. I think the best part was seeing the sunset from above the sunset.

ARE YOU..
1. Simple or complicated? Definitely complicated. I can’t even figure myself out.
2. A murderer? Nah. Not in my list of wanna do-s.
3. Hardcore? rodwc said he changed the above question. I think maybe he should have changed this one too. btw, I stole this from him. shhhhh, don't tell him!

DO YOU PREFER.
1. Flowers or candy? Dunno. I appreciate anything.
2. Gray or black? No preference.
3. Color or Black and white photos? color
4. Lust or Love? Love would be nice. Lust isn't in my plans.
5. Sunrise or sunset? I see a lot more sunsets than I do sunrises.
6. M&Ms or Skittles: chocolate, gooey chocolate any day.
7. Staying up late or waking up early? Staying up late, of course.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY !!
1. Do you like anyone? A net crush doesn’t count, does it?
2. Do they know it? I don't think so. And that's ok with me.

DO YOU PREFER...
1. Sun or moon? Oh, I like both, actually.
2. Winter or Fall? I like to see each season come.
3. Coffee or Tea? Neither, am not a fan of hot drinks
4. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Doesn’t matter, prob vanilla, I guess.

IN THE LAST MONTH, HAVE YOU?
1. Been hugged: Yeah, I guess so! Welcome and goodbye from the family on the trip to Colorado.
2. Felt stupid: Of course. That’s a given.
3. Missed someone: Yeah.
4. Got drunk: Nah, not my style. A girl from the ER is going with my neighbor’s son. They went past my house last night. She says, let’s stop in and see “jm”. He says, nah, she won’t want to drink with us.
5. Got high: High in the air, like 37,000 feet in the sky. T’was fun. Did not become part of the mile high club, tho.
6. Danced Crazy: Nah.
7. Gotten your hair cut: Nope
8. Cried: Sniffled a bit. I don’t let myself cry.

fun

2007-08-23T23:48:00.001-04:00

i had forgotten how much fun IM is with cam
i shall have to cam some more :D

company

2007-08-05T21:22:00.001-04:00

i had company in my house this morning
some very very unwanted company

kc enjoyed it tho
and i've gotta admit, i did NOT feel bad for ruining his fun

there was a bat in my house
A BAT IN MY BEDROOM
swooping and flying round and round
and round my head
swooping tthiiiiss far from my head

i sent it squeaking out the bathroom window

worthless

2007-08-02T20:04:00.001-04:00

friendships?

in the long run, they aren't worth it
they only cause pain

favors

2007-07-25T21:20:00.000-04:00

i was waiting on my relief to come in this evening
and her boyfriend walks in
he says, "hey jm, i need you to do me a favor before you leave"
and i said, "whats that?"
as i was thinking
what do you want?
"pull your car over in front of 205-1 and let me put air in your tire
you've got a flat"
and i started laughing!
so thats why my car was driving funny on the way to work this morning

guess that'll teach me to grump when someone asks a favor of me

banquet

2007-06-08T23:30:00.000-04:00

the ambulance banquet is over for another year
i wasnt in any mood to have it this yr
none whatsoever
but it turned out very nicely
i'm pleased with the way it turned out

jen was spazzing around noon today
totally spazzing, ready to puke spazzing
and i told her, dont worry abt it
all folks really care abt when they come to these things is the food
and you've got the food covered
so you will be just fine

granted, she had reason to be spazzing
cause she certainly wasnt organized
i usually spazz a day or so ahead while i'm preparing
ack, something isnt perfect, the programs are folded wrong, i need a punch bowl and i dont have one
then the day of the event, i'm good
whatever happens, happens, and we'll deal with what doesnt happen
and my system works pretty good

but anyways
we had a very good banquet
i got a lot of good pictures
and a lot of focused people pics
not just random shots into the crowd

we had a few gag gifts
i got to give some of them
i got the president's award, which i was not expecting
i got to bring some of the left over ham along home
and even best, i did not have to be MC

tired

2007-05-27T20:53:00.000-04:00

today has been a relaxing day, for the most part
went to church this morning (of course)
Faith Builders Chorus was there, which i enjoyed

and then the preacher gets up for the sermon
and he starts his talk with
"does anyone know what today is? other than the day that faith builders come to church?"

pentecost
the day the Holy Spirit came
and of course, we sing, "the comforter has come, the comforter has come, the holy ghost from heaven, the father's promise given, oh spread the tidings round, where ever man is found, the comforter has come."
and
well
oh well

came home, made myself a sandwich
sat out on the deck until it started t storming
so i moved indoors to the easy chair
of course, i fell asleep, so when something woke me up
i moved upstairs to bed
and took a proper nap

b woke me up by phone abt 5 30
and i wasnt in any mood to stay up, so i went back to sleep
finally, abt 7 30, maybe a bit before
i got up, made myself another sandwich
took it out to hte deck
and ate it there
came back in, got one of mom's pecan tarts
yummy

was sitting out there, writing xanga/blog entries
listening to the creek
kc lying at the edge of the deck
my mind wondering
(aeb me writing the words to the song above)

and then, it started to rain again
so kc and i came back inside

now, i need to make my list of duties for tomorrow
then head to bed
i'm still tired
and still wishing i knew how to fix everything

work

2007-05-18T23:14:00.000-04:00

we had cousin's night tonight
only it wasnt quite "cousins only" this time

my one cousin and her family is going to kenya for 2 yrs
they have 9 kids, ranging from less than one month, to age 16
they have a farm, and someone is going to be farming it while they are gone
so, they are busy getting stuff ready to leave

we single cousins and 2 of my single aunts have been having cousin's game night periodically
and we decided that this yr we are going to do things for others, instead of doing things for ourselves
and for the first one, we asked lois if she had anything available for us to do
and yes, she did

so, the cousins and the aunts were there
and we told her parents they could come too, and my parents
and her aunt on the other side was there too
we mulched and mulched
and we got an awful lot done in an hr and a half
i am quite pleased with what we got done

then the little girls were pitching balls
and batting them
and i got talked into batting as well
that poor elbow of mine got a workout
it didnt like me throwing the ball, at all
and i decided it was harder work batting balls, than it was mulching

and after it got dark, we had cake and ice cream
and munchies
supplied by the cousins
the only thing lois had to supply was the knife to cut the cake, and ice cream spoons

it was a good evening
a very good evening
lois told me one of her girls said, oh good, jm is coming, i like jm
wow
i didnt realize that!

and then, as we were sitting there, eating ice cream
i remembered
i had left my front door open, when i was getting flowers for hte cake
and i was pretty sure that i had forgotten to shut it
so, when j brought me home, he waited until i checked hte rooms
and there is no boogy man in my house

whoopies

2007-05-14T22:45:00.000-04:00

j called this afternoon
they are going back to mom's to help make whoopies
and she is making spaghetti for supper
and would i want to come back too?

well, depends on if my relief shows up in decent time
and he did
so i went back to mom's
and we made whoopies
all 112 of them
plus the few "rejects"
some of them were a far stretch to be called rejects, tho

mom makes the best whoopies
bar NONE

kc

2007-05-07T22:28:00.000-04:00

kc's version of helping me do my billing at the station

update

2007-04-27T23:49:00.000-04:00

kc update

went to the vet today
he has a torn acl over his knee joint
and has been given strict orders: NO JUMPING
he needs to do nothing but rest that leg

so, i gotta carry him up and down the steps
which he had been learning to do quite well
i've been lifting him in and out of hte tub to drink,
cause he'd just look at it, and not even attempt it

called dad, asked him if he would come over and put one of hte doors on the frame btw the kitchen and the deck room
so, he and j came over
i thot there were doors in the blacksmith shop
but there werent
but we did find a piece of panelling that was perfect
in fact, its almost as if it was cut for that

so we brought it in, j put in a few nails
and i've got a very nice barrier btw my kitchen and deck room
he has his litter box out there, and food and a water dish
and he can look out the deck door
he likes to lay on the window sills and look out

and i shut my bedroom door, to keep him from travelling the steps at night while i'm asleep
sounds like i'm spoiling him rotten, doesnt it?

there are 2 probs
vet said prob he will need surg, but try the prednisone and rest for a wk, and see what happens
he said with using only one hind leg, it will blow out too, sometime down the road, and then he wont have any hind legs to walk with
now i've got to decide
how much does a cat mean to me?
how much does kc mean to me?
and if i do agree to surgery, do i want this vet to do it?
i'm almost inclined to think not
even tho i allowed him to do his neutering

2nd prob
when i had called on sunday, vet had said, give him 20 mg baby aspirin, and see if that helps any
well
so i did
morning and evening
and when i asked him abt it today, if i could continue giving it, the answer was NO
ASA is not good for cats, and esp not that much
you're playing with fire

so, i come home, and google cats and aspirin
and good grief, i've been giving it q 12 hrs
and the net says q 48 - 72 is plenty
and it gives all these signs of toxicity
and now i've got something else to be worried abt
have i killed him, by giving him asa?

the rest of today was good, actually
mom came over too, when dad and j were here
and she brought bbq along
she had made her cmd bbq this evening, and made enough for supper
and she left the leftovers here for my dinner tomorrow at work
and d stopped in as well too

j burnt off my pompas grass
and i talked him into fixing the flusher on the toilet

so, all in all, minus kc worries, its been a good day
factor in kc worries, and i'm not sure what to call the day

j
says to me, i've got a prob with gas
as he is outside on the porch
i had walked out to say something to him
and in abt 15 seconds
i turned around and left him alone
it was RANK

kc

2007-04-22T23:29:00.001-04:00

i learned something today
maybe i am capable of loving a person?

i found out why some folks go bananas and imagine the worst when a family member is hurt
i could never understand that
whatever happens, happens, we'll deal with what ever it is, is how i always thot they should look at it

kc is limping
he's putting no wt whatsoever on his left hind leg
and i had to leave almost as soon as i found him limping
and until i got back, i was envisioning him dead
...from falling into the toilet and drowning while trying to get a drink
...to being more seriously injured than i thot
...to being furious with me for not staying home with him
and on and on

productive

2007-04-20T23:23:00.001-04:00

i've had a productive day today
got up, let kc outside while i came back upstairs and was on the net for a bit
he brought a bee upstairs to my bedroom and was tormenting it
or maybe it was tormenting him, not sure

then, he and i went to the station
and i worked on billing
rachel came in, and she chronologically organized stuff for me
now that folks are getting the charts to me in a timely manner
i'm finally starting to see some light in the billing issue
its really hard to take pride in your job, if you cant do your job properly

and then,
we played a game of cards
shangai, which was renamed "kill justme"
tis fun going out on all the others
even more fun is gloating abt it!

i havent played cards with rachel in months
i havent sat in the bay and talked with everyone in months
and it shows
not spending time with the group means you loose track

i need to remind myself that that concept is for more than just the station

owned

2007-04-14T20:42:00.000-04:00

that goofy cat of mine
thinks he owns my house

he has started something new tonight
i've caught him on my bed, waiting on me, from time to time
but he always jumps off when i come near

wellll
not tonight

i came back from my tub routine
and he is lying smack in the middle of my bed
and he won't move
so, i hiked myself up in bed just a bit
and crawled in behind him
and he continues to lie there
and pretty soon he bats at my bare behind

he moved

new

2007-04-11T23:53:00.000-04:00

this showed up on our doorstep today
and of course, we kept it

worn-out

2007-04-10T21:27:00.000-04:00

kc and i found a new toy
a laser pointer
it has 5 diff shapes to it,
a smilie face, a butterfly, a mouse, a dot and a star
he appears to like the dot the best

tis quite fun making him jump up the wall
or go in circles
or bat at it, trying to catch it

i sit here and laugh at him
and i have every intentions of using that laser pointer tonight
after i shut out my light

i believe i just wore him out!!
he's lying beside my bed, all stretched out, sleeping

leftovers

2007-04-06T23:55:00.001-04:00

shortly after 5 today, i got a phone call
if we bring chix pizza, may t come and look up some stuff on your computer?

so, i stopped at klines, got lettuce, a tomato, cheese, and carrots for a salad
and went home, swept the floor, washed up the dishes
made my salad
and then got the table set
they showed up, we ate, and t got settled with my computer

j had brought along her dough, and she rolled and baked sticky buns
and i read to the kids
and we colored
kc hid
he's not fond of kids
he likes his orderly life

and she left me a plate of sticky buns
yummmy
and some of the left over pizza
and i've got salad left over
so, i'm all set for tomorrow
maybe even for sunday too

busy

2007-04-05T22:45:00.000-04:00

busy day today
5 calls
kept me hopping

i had an a-flutter, a drunk, and a narcotic overdose, (unintentional)
the other 2 were cancellations

every time i sat down to try to do paperwork, the tones would start dropping again
and off i'd go with my lights and sirens
to save another life

disappointed

2007-04-03T22:58:00.001-04:00

but i'll survive
and i'll make the best of it

at least i've got an extra day to work in my yard now
thats gotta be a plus

absentminded

2007-04-01T22:39:00.001-04:00

a person meets all sorts of people at jco sheetz

i was filling up the trailblazer, and this car drove past towards the next pump
and i absentmindedly thot, that looks like a beachy

the car backs up
and the driver waves at me
its my cousin marv
all the way from new york city!
i got to see their little baby
we stood there and talked for a bit

kc is very lovey
he lies on his back, legs in the air, watching me get dressed for work
curls around my legs when i come home
he sat on the window sill watching me clean the garbage from my car tonight
follows me every where i go
and when i'm sitting on the pot,
he's right at my feet
and if he isnt on my bed, he's laying where he can see me

cake

2007-03-31T22:30:00.000-04:00

its been a long time since i made a cake that i found all sorts of fault with it
i made a choc cake with caramel icing last night, after work
it was good, but i certainly wasnt happy with it

it calls for a cup of coffee, so i made the coffee a bit stronger than normal,
and i could taste a hint of coffee in the cake
not what i wanted at all
i shant be making the coffee stronger than normal after this

and i dumped some choc chips in the batter, the recipe didnt call for it
but i thot it would be good
well, the choc chips all went to the bottom of the cake
next time, i'll put the batter in the pan, then sprinkle choc chips over the top
and see how that works
i think it'll work better
or maybe :lightbulb moment: maybe i'll bake it half ways, then sprinkle choc chips on it
that sounds like a lovely idea

and then, i made caramel icing
and every time i make caramel icing, i'm never satisfied with the looks of it
its good, caramel icing is always good
but this time, i put too much 10x in
and so it got hard on me, before i got it spread
and i put it on too thick
talk abt a sweet cake, it was almost sickeningly sweet

so, i've been trying to give it away
left some at central
mom dad and bro came over for ice cream and cake tonight
and i sent some along home with them
and that left me with 4 pieces
so i wrapped them up and stuck them in the freezer

tomorrow

2007-03-27T22:59:00.000-04:00

i've got off tomorrow

jon is coming, and we are going to trim the grapes
maybe i can talk him into bringing mom's roto tiller along

i've gotta work on subscriptions too
and i want to take my taxes to the tax man
i guess i'll have to get up early, and do the taxes and the subs, and then have jon come over around 2 pm

ewwwww

2007-03-26T23:13:00.001-04:00

the flusher on my toilet is broken
and i dont like lifting the lid and putting my hand down in the tank to flush it
so, i've been only flushing it every other time
shutting the toilet lid btw times
well, that is turning out to be grosser than lifting the tank lid

i think i need to go to walmart and get a flushing assembly
and hope that i can figure out how to put it together

injuries

2007-03-25T22:59:00.000-04:00

its not bad enough i almost burn my house down yesterday
now i went and injured myself today

was to my bro's for dinner today after church
the kids were ecstatic
and i was passing the gravy bowl
and in my defense the bowl was overly full
but i'm still better than all that
i dumped gravy on my wrist, right on my metal watch
ouch
ripped off hte watch and licked hte gravy off my arm
it left a nice red 1st degree burn
i know, i know, 1st degree burn is using dated terminology

it got me out of washing dishes tho!
i played memory with the 2 little girls while sil and the older 2 did dishes

and then, after the dishes were done
we went on a walk
its not a good idea to talk a walk in sunday shoes
even if they are flat shoes
i came back with a huge blister on the ball of hte left foot
and a blister on the right pinkie toe

and when i came home, i took out hte garbage
then washed off the deck table,
and sat out on the deck until hte sun went down behind the ridge
it started to get chilly
kc and i came inside then.

fire

2007-03-24T22:45:00.000-04:00

well, i almost burnt my house down today
think that isnt hte adrenalin rush

i decided to make noodles in ham broth for supper, so i got out the frozen broth and put it in a kettle with a bit of water, and on the burner, and turned the knob to 7
pulled the noodles out of the cupboard, laid them down, turned to the sink and was putting water in a pan for the noodles
and just abt the time that i smelled something burning, i saw a reflection of flames in the window in front of my sink
and i whirled around, then stood there gaping for half a sec

and i instantly knew what i had done,
i had turned on the wrong burner and the noodles were laying on that burner
now what do i do?
the fire is flaming upwards, close to a foot high
and my brain is in high gear, call lwd tell him i need help, call 911 but i dont want the fire company to come because of a stove fire, my phone isnt dead, what do i do?
and as my brain is thinking all those thots, i'm reaching down into my cupboard, and i got my large lid and covered up hte noodles on the burner

and when i lifted the lid, it started flaming up again
so i got hte skillet, opened up the oven door, and used the lid and scraped most of that whole pile of burning noodles and melted plastic into the skillet, then covered up hte burner again with the lid
stood there watching the noodles burn in hte skillet, as i'm holding hte skillet, and i blew out that fire then put the skillet over in the sink

and turned my attention to the burner again, lifted hte lid, and it starts to flame again, but not nearly as much as before. and since it worked to blow out hte other fire in hte skillet, i blew out the fire on the burner as well.
didnt know i was that windy
pulled the burner out of hte socket
realized there is a huge amt of smoke in my kitchen, so i turned on the ceiling fan, opened up the kitchen door, opened up the deck door, remembered that kc was outside which was a good thing
and sat down and shook
and thanked God for His protection

then i gathered up my courage, and cleaned up the mess
and reached deeper and found a bit more, so i made my noodles and ham broth
only i had to use broken into pieces angel hair spaghetti for my noodles cause i burnt the real noodles

and almost 3 hrs later i told mom and dad

touchdown

2007-03-21T21:52:00.000-04:00

message left on my cell phone

"i got a pass from darryl and i'm headed your way for a touchdown"

explanation:
i left my wallet at work this evening
and darryl met french at the end of hte narrows
french met me at strodes fire house
and i got my wallet back

i've got good co-workers

licensure

2007-03-20T21:35:00.001-04:00

licensure went well today
we had a lovely day to do it
went thru every single piece of equipment, counted every single 4x4 and alcohol prep pad, and checked expiration dates on everything from meds to phlebotomy tubes to defib pads

but at least its over now, for the next 3 yrs

oh, the best part of it all?
is being at work, and knowing that i dont have to take the calls
bossman took one this morning
and then yetter took one this afternoon
its quite fun, hearing hte pager go and seeing someone else take the call!

bribery

2007-03-19T20:59:00.001-04:00

i was in no mood to go to the station today, to do work

so, when i got up i started doing my dishes
i had enough that made it worthwhile to draw water and do them
i was hungry, didnt know what i wanted to eat

i had some chicken legs adn thighs that i stuck in the oven to make season salt chx
and some hamburg that needed something done with

i put the hamburg and some onions in a skilllet and fried them together
along with chili powder, and red pepper flakes
had no idea what i wanted to make with it
i didnt want to make spaghetti sauce, cause i didnt want spaghetti

looked in my cupboard
saw a can of great white northern beans, dumped it in
then saw a can of diced tomatoes, dumped it in
hmmm, needs more tomatoes, do i have anymore?
yup, heres a can of italian style tomatoes with basil and oregano
looking good
added a bit of sugar to it
yummmy

called mom, told her if she stops in on her way home,
and if she thinks its enough, she can take it along home for supper
after i ate my portion, it didnt look like a whole lot anymore
so, i put some potatoes in the oven for her

so, as it turned out, i sent some chx along home too
and the potatoes
i guess that was my good deed for the day

she came too early, i didnt get my choc chip/marshmallow bars baked
so, she didnt get to take any along home
and now they be all mine
(i'd rather have the chili, than the bars tho)

i know what, i'll take some bars along to work tomorrow
that'll get rid of them for me, and i wont have to eat them all myself
tomorrow is licensure
maybe i can bribe scott into being nice to us!

snow

2007-03-18T22:31:00.000-04:00

i got to prove myself today
twas fun
i got to prove that i'm a better driver than a guy is!

i had a call with central today
and it was up over a hill that was snow covered
collin tried twice to take the amb up over the hill
and he couldnt
so, jane hopped in with me, and we drove right up the hill
no spinning, no sliding, just drove right up
as if it was a lovely dry lane

laugh!
oh, it was funny
poor collin

oh, the rest of hte story
you want to hear hte rest of hte story?
he had an amb, which isnt good in snow
and i had a trailblazer with 4 wheel drive
but that had nothing to do with it, you know
it was all the driver!

cold

2007-03-16T23:12:00.000-04:00

i came home to a cold house, this evening
and realized that i had set the furnace back to 60 the other day,
and had turned off the electric heater in the deck room
but, i had to turn them back on and turn the thermostat up to 66
because its cold out, and we've got snow
like 6 inches of it

the roads were nasty today
low budget wrecks all over the place
one after another

i came home and opened the door for kc to go out
he stood on the door step and looked out
and he just stood there
then he turned around and came back in
i guess snow isnt his thing

phlegmatic

2007-03-14T21:27:00.000-04:00

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

What Temperment Are You?

misfortune

2007-02-25T22:52:00.001-05:00

kc's misfortune continued this morning
he woke me up
at 6 30, i might add
and kept jumping up on hte head end of my bed
meowing
and generally making a nuisance of himself
i'd growl him
and he'd move away for a bit
and i squirted him with vinegar water
and he took off down the steps
but in 15 min he was back
i wanted to sleep!!

so, i got up and shut the door in his face

the last time i did that, he pooped on the carpet right in front of hte door
and i guess he trained me, cause i've never shut him out since
till this morning

and when i officially got up this morning
he was lying on the floor right outside the door
waiting on me

hard

2007-02-24T23:07:00.000-05:00

poor kc has had a really hard day today

started out early this afternoon, when i shut the door in his face, and made him stay outside
well, i had to!
i was being a good little menno girl and washing hte floor on my hands and knees
he had to stay outside cause he was being a pain in hte rear
poor guy tho,
he sat just outside the deck door, and meowed
he wanted in
and i kept saying not yet
and when he finally was allowed in, all he wanted was food, he didnt care abt me

later on, i had a piece of cake, that i was trying to eat
he was trying his best to stick his nose in my cake
i'd move it to one side, and he'd come over there
then i'd move it to the other side, and he trot right over there
he never did get a piece of it
he finally gave up, and i had no idea where he got to

and abt an hr later, i was very unladylike, and i made no attempt to hold a fart
and he promptly got up from under my chair and moved to the other side of the room

laugh!!!
oh, how i laughed at him

poor cat has had a hard day
even now, he's sitting in hte doorway to my bedroom, instead of right beside or on my bed
i think he must still be mad at me!

snow

2007-02-13T22:30:00.000-05:00

its snowing
reports say up to 16 inches by tomorrow evening

i have off tomorrow
so
i think that i'm going to do some baking
after all,
my neighbor is going to come plow me out
and i've got to have something to give him for it

mom might come over too
depends on the roads, she said

i'm going to be mean and nasty to kc too, tomorrow
i'm going to shove him out the door, and see what he thinks of snow
and then, i'm sure i'll laugh at him!
i cant wait!

profound

2007-02-09T23:28:00.000-05:00

i want to write something profound
but my brain doesnt want to think profound thots

so,
i guess i wont force it this evening

limbo

2007-02-07T22:29:00.000-05:00

i need to get myself a calling card again
so that i can make long distance calls from my phone
instead of thru yahoo and mic

i'm also abt ready to give up and go find a new cell phone
even tho mine still works nicely
i know...
i've declared up and down that i'm being cheap and wont get another one till this one dies
but i'm ready for a cell that has service at my house
i also have a long list of wants to go with it

camera
net ready
IM capability
txt messaging
keyboard type pad
capability of saving a few documents, of writing a few and saving them, then transfering, prob via email if necessary
service at my house
preferably flip type, but that might not be an option
a few games, such as tetris, diamond mine, snake

my brain is in limbo this evening
it's not sure what to write
its not sure what to think
its been daydreaming, somewhat
which isnt a good thing, for me

played texas hold'em with central's crew and darryl today
and i won the first game
twas feeling pretty good over that one
and then, was losing in the 2nd game, and the pager went
for a cancellation
so, darryl and i went for a ride, thru back woods country i've never been before
didnt get lost either

we drove past twin sisters craft shop
the sign said, we have the perfect valentines gift
so, i had to ask him, what is the perfect valentines gift?
is immediate answer?
a wild boar hunt
and he spends the next 5 min telling me all abt wild boar hunting

dad

2007-02-06T22:32:00.000-05:00

ya know
my dad is a pretty good guy
i wouldnt trade him for anyone else's dad

together, he and i got my water thawed this evening
and i think that i have figured out how to do it
so that i dont have to call him next time
not to mention, that next time i will know that i need to open all the faucets
not just the upstairs ones

and lwd
he's an ok guy too
we bummed his torch to thaw the pipes

today

2007-02-04T22:13:00.000-05:00

broiled grapefruit
i can guarantee that i will not be making it for myself
neither will i ask for it to be made for me
it's eatable
but definately not scrumptious

broiled grapefruit
put brown sugar on it, and broil it until hte sugar bubbles

today was my day for bumming food off others
went to kelli's for broiled grapefruit
and then central had a superbowl party, which i partook of, before i left work

its quite frigid today
and supposed to be overnight, as well
i opened the faucets to drip tonight
last yr, i had frozen pipes
and i'd prefer not to go thru that again this yr

rumor

2007-01-30T21:43:00.000-05:00

yummy
i was back home for supper tonight
mom made scrapple and tomato gravy and eggs
i know, i know, its a bkf meal, but that doesnt matter

its been a long long time since i had that meal
and it was certainly worth it, to go back

alan called me up today, want to come to kountry kitchen and eat lunch with us?
well, i had just gotten a salad from klines, and taken 3 bites
so, i stuck it in the frig
and met him there
we had a nice chat, i havent talked to him except in passing, for a long time
so it was really nice to catch up with him again

rumor has it that there is to be a big snow storm
dunno how accurate that rumor is tho

reminiscing

2007-01-28T22:58:00.000-05:00

what can i say abt today?
well, for starters, i'm tired of jco sundays
sundays are for rest, not for running 4 calls
my first call today, classic MI symptoms, and he was having THE BIG ONE
right in front of me
all i could do, was watch it get worse
i was decreasing the pain, but watching it get "worser and worser" on the monitor
i was truly glad to get him to the ER and give him to them

and then, another cp,
a word for word repeat from abt 4 wks ago
then a short of breath who was so hypoxic that he was confused
but i worked my magic on him, and he was feeling better till we go to the ER

and lastly a baby, resp distress as well
sick little baby

and of course, it was 8 30 till i left again
this has been the wkend for late calls

and what more can i say abt today?
well, t-town called, asked if we are missing a portable
yes, we are
well, its in one of their ambulances
so, i went down there, and picked it up
and then
i drove back around to the church where i went as a little girl
sat in the parking lot, (was abt 2 pm), for awhile
just thinking
wondering what life would have been like, had my parents not chose that church to attend

late

2007-01-27T23:13:00.000-05:00

4 min after 6, the pager goes
to the outer limits of mongolia, and to the hosp
it was 8 15 till i got back to central

got home, and kc was all thrilled to see me
altho, he really wanted food, tho, first

right now, he's sleeping on my leg
he had been on the floor beside my bed, on his back,
all 4 legs up in the air
sleeping

excuse

2007-01-26T22:52:00.000-05:00

i wanted someone to talk to, on my way home from work this evening
but i didnt have any reason to call anyone
not even a flimsy excuse

so, i stopped at mcdonalds, and ate on the way home
and turned the radio up loud

lost

2007-01-17T23:01:00.000-05:00

my brain is empty
it doesnt know what to write
so, it guesses it will just ramble
ramble on and on

where shall i take it?
its gotta be somewhere that i can find it again
if it should happen to get lost
unfortunately, that sorta cuts down on choices
cause i cant affort to lose what brain i do have

i could take it towards abuse
i could take it towards crushes
i could take it towards work
or i could take it towards bed

and the bed option sounds the best
no chance of it getting lost there

i believe that is what i will do!

running

2007-01-14T23:00:00.000-05:00

'nother busy day today
4 more calls today
guess its my turn to have all the calls

jco goes in cycles
one person has all the calls, no matter what shift they work
and the rest have practically nothing

i think its my turn to have the jco black cloud again

i saw the love of God today, in a conversation online
and i ran
as usual

what did i run towards?
food--krispykreme donut from sheetz

trust

2007-01-13T22:58:00.000-05:00

such a day today
busy busy busy
talked with command 2 times
had 4 calls in 6 hrs time
last time i called up for report, i got yelled at
by swigart
he had the nerve to tell me to go back to jco and stay there were i belong

here's an interesting part of today
yetter left this morning, and took my pager with him, and left his there
and so i was on the phone, and hte comm center pages " ****** call the center"
oops!
i was on the phone so long that yetter got tired of trying to beep me and decided to get my attention the only other way he could!
anyways, so, plans are to meet on the top of the mt, 235 N and switch out pagers at 12 noon
wouldnt you know
11:25, pager goes, (yetter, i'll call you back when i'm avail)
came back off that one, and promptly get sent out on another one
yetter beeps me while i'm on it
i'm on a call, i'll beep you back, i said
so, on the way back from that one, its after 2 00 pm
and i beeped him, well, he just laid his dau down for a nap, lets set it up for 3 30
and at 3 15, the pager went again. hey, i'm on another call, i'll let you know when i'm avail
finally, shortly before 5, i was able to make it up to the top of hte mt to meet him
and he said, just on the other side of the county line there is a pull off
meet me there
well, he failed to tell me that the pulloff is on the other side of the county line, his side
and so, i passed it
and he flashes his head lights at me, abt 500 yards past it
and so we both turn around, and smack on top of the mt, we roll down the windows
and exchange pagers
it almost felt like a rolling stop, it was so quick

thats gotta have been the highlight of my day
dunno what the driver of the car thot, that was behind him

and wouldnt you know, i didnt even make it back to the station, when the tones dropped for the next one
hey, i got to give phenergan!

and i was busy talking myself up today
something i dont do to often
this kid i had never seen before was in central's amb, as part of the crew
and on the way back, he says, "i was freaking out, and you were so calm.
i wanna be a medic. this was my first call, and i think i like this stuff"
so, i laughed
and i told him, well!
you couldnt have had a better medic for your first call
the other crew member was supposed to argue with me
but she didnt
she even told me, "i'd trust you with my life"

fix

2007-01-11T23:26:00.000-05:00

sudafed and advil work wonders for clogged sinuses
temporary fix, i know
but all i need is another dose or so, tomorrow, maybe sat too, and i'll be good to go
(i think)

i wasnt aware that i had to show my driver's license to buy sudafed
i knew it was behind the pharmacy counter
and i knew they were keeping pretty good track of it
but i didnt know that i would have to show my driver's license and sign their book

sharing

2007-01-10T21:53:00.000-05:00

i am willing to share
i have a head cold, that is only going to get worse, before it gets better
i need sudafed and advil, but all i have is the advil
call me on the phone tomorrow, abt 6 30 - 7 AM and i wont be able to talk
i'll be snotted shut, and my throat will be parched dry and full of cracked mucous
the county wont know who is talking on the radio when i go responding
so, thats what i am willing to share

what are you willing to share?

eyes

2007-01-06T23:17:00.000-05:00

i see you
i see you snooping in on me like that without leaving any comments
DONT EVEN THINK OF SNEAKING OFF THIS TIME WITHOUT POSTING A COMMENT!

i'll have to hunt you down if you do
and no telling what i might do...

my bro was here for supper tonight
we sat and did sudoku puzzles
the quietest bit of company i've had in a long time!

thanks grampy gene for allowing me to steal this from you

soup

2007-01-05T23:02:00.000-05:00

that was a lovely sleep last night
it was worth it, to take some advil and go to sleep
slept all night long, and was feeling much better this morning

we sponsored the red cross blood drive today
so, was there from mid morning, till almost 8 pm
i was tired of ham and chix salad sandwiches and cookies and juice
i think thats what we have fed the donors every single time we've sponsored the blood drive
so, c and i decided on chz with ham or lebanon bologna sandwiches, and crackers
and the obligatory juices
i'm not doing that again
that was much to expensive to suit my tastes
i should have known better

then, lwd commented this evening how we should have made soup
and i agreed, i had thot of it late last night, but it was too late then anymore
we could have made veggie and chix corn soup at the fh
and it would have been good
lwd makes good veggie soup

and he suckered me into making chix corn soup for bingo tue night
that wont be hard
cook up some chx, debone it
dump a few cans of corn into a pot, dump the chx in with it, add some chx bullion, and let it cook for awhile
only prob is, i only have one med sized pot
and i dont know how long to cook chx, i guess i'll have to call mom
i'd like to add some noodles to it
maybe i'll have to do that
i'll see if lwd okays that

oh, and to ANon
i've gotta blame SAD, cause i dont want to break down and say i have PMS
i don't have PMS, thats just not possible
i'm much to sweet and pleasant all the time!

tired

2007-01-04T22:31:00.000-05:00

i be tired tonight
i hear a bed calling my name
its lonesome
it wants some quality time with me
i'm inclined to give it what it wants

i'm inclined to not care when my computer grumps abt being ignored, tonight
bout time it learns who is boss around here
and that boss be ME