line

i've been arguing with myself lately
what is hte fine line btw fighting to keep a friendship when you feel someone is pulling away
vs, being whiney and clingy and all those things i hate in a girl?

i hate being whiney and clingy so i shut up
which is a self defeating cycle, cause that hastens the end
i hate pushing myself onto someone if they dont want to spend time with me
i refuse to do that
which means, once again, i put someone else's wants in front of mine

but by the same token
i hate feeling as if i am a burden, and they are only doing something cause i want them to

maybe i do need to move to montana with kc after all