horrid

oh man
i feel so horrid, this evening

kc is not feeling good at all
he is moping around
he just sprawls out where ever he happens to be
he staggers when he walks
he looks at me with these pitiful eyes
i had to carry him up the steps, this evening
and he just laid limp in my arms
i picked him up wrong and he whimpered
he has no interest in water
i tried to give him a bit, but he wouldnt take it
he's been npo for abt 24 hrs, now
he has a 4-5 inch incision in his belly
the vet had to go up in, and get that undescended testicle

but see, i can't have him marking his territory as being my pillow
even worse, with my head on the pillow
so i had to get that testicle removed

but i'm feeling so horrid right now
why did i ever put him thru this?