nostalgia

went spotting tonight with jon
we drove up in our fields. i havent been up there, in yrs and yrs. i remember going spotting, in our old green car, and chasing the deer in the car.

then we came down around the pasture, around the old shed on the hill. i remember, 17 yrs ago, when the cicadas were out, i had abt 10 calves in that shed. i used to have to carry water up the hill to them, morning and evening. i remember thinking, i wonder what life will be like, when these cicadas come back. back then, i thot i would be a dairy farmer. i was into hte cows, was taking over the records, had already taken over hte milking, and the calves. and then, life took a sudden change, and here i am today.

we came down past the old chicken house, adn the tiny little peep house that i had had ducks in, and geese a time or two, and one yr, i think there was turkeys in there. i used to have my chores to do. even after i took over hte milking, i still had the calves adn the chickens to tend to. hey, was fun, i could carry 2 five gallon buckets full of water adn feed, and not blink an eye.

shone the spot light into the barn, against hte parlor windows, and the milkhouse. life as a little mennonite girl was so sheltered, so long ago

we were up at hte cabin for supper this evening, adn we were talking abt when teh cabin was built. one summer, when i was a half grown kid, i debarked all the logs for the cabin. i had this one tape that i used to listen to all the time, while i was ripping bark off these pine trees. after that, the tape got shoved back for some reason, and abt 2 yrs ago, i found that tape, put it in the player, and i immediately could smell pine

adn then, i was gonna bring the pet taxi along home. the one that mom had gotten for when we were into dogs/puppies. many a litter of puppies went to hte vet in that thing. i would crawl into hte pen with hte shelties and hook the puppies onto the 'dinner plates" every 2 hrs, for hte first several days of their life. shelties are very dumb mothers, and very dumb puppies.

how did i ever end up, where i am now?