ironic

well, i've written and deleted
written and deleted some more

i've had a few interesting experiences at work
that i hesitate to post, because of privacy issues
hence the deletion of various writings of mine in this posting

its ironic, really ironic i think, that i chose a field where a person isnt allowed to talk abt their experiences
i've certainly had lots of practice keeping things inside where no one else can see them.


so anyways,
i volunteered for 2 more days this wk
dunno yet, if i'll get them or not
i really dont want them
but the shifts need filled

boots

i finally broke down and bought a new pair of work boots today
i've had these for 5 yrs, and they have served me well
full time, OT, in mud to my knees (that was a fun call )
on ice, in water, blood dripped on them

but today, i blew out the side while on a call
couldnt figure out why my foot was cold, till i looked down
the boots were looking bedraggled anyways,
but i was just too cheap to go buy new boots
60.00 is a lot of money to spend on myself at one time

don't you think it was time to go get new boots?

attacked

that goofy cat of mine

every time i crawl into bed,
he attacks my feet as they lift up off the floor

every time!

busy

i've had a busy day today
busy patting myself on the back, that is

started out this morning
stuck an iv in a guy, on a blind stick
with only half assurance that there was a vein there
but that was the best i could find
half is better than nothing, i guess
fully expected to come up empty handed
needless to say, i was feeling very good abt myself

better than the other day, when i felt as if i couldnt hit the broad side of a barn
i hate those days

that was the first pt of mine

the 2nd pt, i looked at his address
**** SR *** N
and i asked him, is that near angelos?
he looked at me, quite surprised
its directly across from angelos

twas funny.
i was making conversation with him because he wasnt in acute distress
i'm quite aware of where #### SR *** N is, and his numerics were abt 2000 numbers N
didnt think i was that good at estimating the numerics on a road, tho!

and pt # 3
horrible venous access, again
i was envisioning multiple sticks with nothing to show for
and once again, on a blind stick with no definitive proof of a vein in there
perfect IV skills
by that time i was quite thrilled with myself
:D

then i decided that i better stop gloating
cause pretty soon, i'll find myself on the bottom of the mountain, if i dont shut up

oh!!!
those iv sticks were in a moving ambulance
like miles always said, the bumps just bump the needle into place

ok, ok
now i'm shutting up!!

jaded

guess i'm off tomorrow, and working friday night for darryl
i'm tired, it'll be nice to have off tomorrow
but working fri night will be a pain

but thats ok
i get shift differential :pleased:


had the most lame als dispatch today that i have heard in a long time
i have no clue where they fit that into the protocol
ALS for hyperglycemia, pt has dementia so they dont know if he has any other symptoms or not
whoopty do

i got cancelled
as well i should have

btw, i'm on a personal care rant today
that hyperglycemia was both pc and comm center idiocy
but the other call i had today
disp for chest pain, thats all well and dandy, that's as it should be

come to find out, this guy fell, landed on his left shoulder on concrete
and now is complaining of left sided cp, very very tender to touch
and they gave him a nitro
how stupid can you get?
esp for someone who is supposed to have a "little" bit of medical training
ntg is for cardiac chest pain, not trauma chest pain

i think i must be getting jaded
i didnt use to complain abt stuff like that
i'd just laugh

questions

ARE YOU:
1. A Cuddler? I think so. I would like to find out.
2. A morning person? NO!!
3. Are you a perfectionist? At the beginning of a project, yes. Then as the project continues, I become a procrastinator.
4. An only child? No.
5. Catholic? No, but I did babysit for catholic neighbors when I was a teenager, tho.
6. In your pajamas? In abt 30 minutes, yes, I will be.
7. Currently suffering from a broken heart? No, it’s pretty secure.
8. Okay at styling other people's hair? Anybody want to let me practice? I'm really good at starting IV's tho.
9. Left handed? Nope, I’m half left, tho
10. Addicted to Xanga? Nah, just MD.

DO YOU:
12. Bite your nails? No, but I do bite off broken ones if I don’t have a clippers nearby. That or use trauma shears.
13. Get paranoid at times? Not usually, no.
14. Currently regret something that you have said? Yeah.
15. Curse when you get mad? Not usually. I just crank up the radio as far as it will go, and listen to anything with a lot of drums to it.
16. Enjoy country music? Once in a while, yes, I do. Certain songs more than others, of course.
17. Enjoy jazz music? Not particularly. Not really experienced any, tho.
18. Enjoy smoothies? That’s another thing that I haven’t really experienced.
19. Enjoy talking on the phone? Depends on who I am talking to.
20. Have a lot to learn? Yeah. Too much
21. Have a pet? KC of course. He’s a good cat. You’ll see him in my profile pic.
22. Have a tendency to fall for the wrong person? If I ever fall for someone, I don’t think that I’ll be getting back up again.
23. Have all your grandparents? No, only doddy, anymore.
24. Have at least one sibling? Three brothers.
25. Have been told that you are smart? Yeah, that I have. I tend to not believe it, tho.
26.Have a broken bone? Um, no, not officially! But I still say that my ankle was broken. Oh wait, yes I did break a bone. Right hand ring finger I broke the tip off while trying to unlatch the litter. I had lots of fun playing with that loose fingernail and grossing everyone out.
27. Have Caller I.D. on your phone? On my cell phone yes. Might have to get it on my house phone. Am finding out that I really like caller ID.

LAST PERSON WHO
1. You emailed? Hmmm, dunno for sure. Prob ernie eby, regarding a covering survey.
2. Saw you cry? Been a long long time since I let anyone see me cry. In fact, I don’t let myself see me cry.
3. You chatted on IM with? Single4Eternally
4. You talked to on the phone? Wait, let me check my cell phone. Ahh, ok. My aunt, to find out why they hadn’t showed up yet.
5. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it? Romantic I love you or otherwise? Romantic? Never, and it's prob better that way. Otherwise? Mennomommy, and I guess she means it.
6. Broke your heart? Like I said earlier, my heart is pretty secure.
7. Made you laugh? Neil from the ER today, I guess.
8. You planned a trip with? My 2 aunts. Went the whole way to Colorado and back, by way of Dallas Fort Worth airport. It was fun. I think the best part was seeing the sunset from above the sunset.

ARE YOU..
1. Simple or complicated? Definitely complicated. I can’t even figure myself out.
2. A murderer? Nah. Not in my list of wanna do-s.
3. Hardcore? rodwc said he changed the above question. I think maybe he should have changed this one too. btw, I stole this from him. shhhhh, don't tell him!

DO YOU PREFER.
1. Flowers or candy? Dunno. I appreciate anything.
2. Gray or black? No preference.
3. Color or Black and white photos? color
4. Lust or Love? Love would be nice. Lust isn't in my plans.
5. Sunrise or sunset? I see a lot more sunsets than I do sunrises.
6. M&Ms or Skittles: chocolate, gooey chocolate any day.
7. Staying up late or waking up early? Staying up late, of course.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY !!
1. Do you like anyone? A net crush doesn’t count, does it?
2. Do they know it? I don't think so. And that's ok with me.

DO YOU PREFER...
1. Sun or moon? Oh, I like both, actually.
2. Winter or Fall? I like to see each season come.
3. Coffee or Tea? Neither, am not a fan of hot drinks
4. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Doesn’t matter, prob vanilla, I guess.

IN THE LAST MONTH, HAVE YOU?
1. Been hugged: Yeah, I guess so! Welcome and goodbye from the family on the trip to Colorado.
2. Felt stupid: Of course. That’s a given.
3. Missed someone: Yeah.
4. Got drunk: Nah, not my style. A girl from the ER is going with my neighbor’s son. They went past my house last night. She says, let’s stop in and see “jm”. He says, nah, she won’t want to drink with us.
5. Got high: High in the air, like 37,000 feet in the sky. T’was fun. Did not become part of the mile high club, tho.
6. Danced Crazy: Nah.
7. Gotten your hair cut: Nope
8. Cried: Sniffled a bit. I don’t let myself cry.