imagination

am gonna continue to grump
that lump is sore
and seems bigger this evening
in fact, looking in the mirror,
my neck looks swollen on that side

i'm sure its just my imagination, tho

pride

once again, am in an argument
this time its abt beards and tattoos
at least its not abt skirts and ladies jeans, this time!

was to the station today,
got quite a bit accomplished
was proud of myself

altho, i wasnt so proud when i walked into the office today
cause, it was obvious there had been a cat in there
i guess that means, mr kc wont go back again
which is a royal shame
cause i like his company at hte station

attempts

folks are attempting to scare me

i'm telling you all, it's smaller than what it was
when i first noticed it

i'll see what it does, while i am gone for the wkend
after all, its prob just from scrunching up my shoulder and neck
when i chat online at night, in my bed
lying on my stomach, with both arms out above my head
it'll relax the tension on that muscle, if i quit that position

quality

well,i talked mom into coming and giving kc some quality time
while i am gone
he's going to go nuts, with no one to torment for 5 whole days
with no one to love him

am still grumping to everyone i see, abt this lump
its sore
and bugs me

lump

i have a lump on the side of my neck
abt the size of a pea
straight down from my ear
noticed it yesterday
and since then, i've been feeling it constantly
and now, its sore, cause i've been poking at it for 2 days straight

dunno what it is
clinton tells me to "go get it checked"
dr h (er) says, "you need to have that looked at"
i say its just a pulled muscle from all my gardening
it'll get better

company

i had an interesting night last night
i had overnight company
i havent had overnight company in at least 8 yrs
she says kc has a serious attitude problem
i say he is just spoiled rotten!


here's hoping i was a semi decent hostess
thanks b, for spending the night :)

pics

was looking at the pics that i took on sunday
theres some pretty nice ones in that mix
i've got a nice family
only prob is, we didnt get a family pic, that day

busy

today has been a productive day
got several loads of laundry done
and dried
and put away
changed my bed linens
swept the kitchen and deck room floors

set up a litter box in the one room upstairs
and put kc into it
he turned up his nose and jumped out

had company for dinner today
g im'ed me, wanna meet somewhere for dinner?
hmmm, well, i am kinda busy
why don't you come here, and i'll make spaghetti
worked out nicely
thanks for coming, g :)

finished raking my garden
altho its not a good menno garden by any long shot
too many stones, and still has some chunks of grass in it
planted 2 short rows of radishes
2 short rows of lettuce
and a patch of onions

lwd came over, said i better not burn that pile of brush
right where its at, under the wires
hmm
grrrrr
now i gotta move it, before i burn it

was outside running around in my bare feet
gots blisters on my hands
from all that hard physical labor that i am not used to anymore

dug up an onion from my yard, left over from last yr
and ate it
whew
it was quite intense

kc is totally worn out
he was outside all day
chasing bees and exploring the old barn
he didnt even come upstairs with me, this evening
he was sleeping on the table, when i came up
i told him i was going up, you coming?
and he just stayed there
he'll be up, sooner or later

disappointing

stopped at walmart this evening on my way home
spent 126.00 there
grrrr

found out today, that a can't work for me on thur 27th
which really disappointed me
and then d asked me to switch him stations this sat
he wants to ask m to come in early for him, he has plans
um, ok, d
yes, i can do that
but there goes my plans :cry:
because i was intending on asking m if he could come in early for me
i'm having company sat night, and i haven't had overnight company in yrs
now, not only am i not getting off early
but i'm also in jco, which is farther away
and k comes in later than what m does
so, im farther way, and will have a later start coming home

so, all in all, today has been a somewhat disappointing day
and kc is being bad, so i banished him from my room
i dont like him banished from my room
i miss him when he's not here with me
wish he would learn to be good

mad

i am still mad at kc

stupid cat isnt man enough to go downstairs in hte dark by himself and pee
he peed on my suitcase
STUPID CAT PEED ON MY SUITCASE
so what do i do?
gonna go buy another litter box, and put it upstairs
i was determined to not do that
but, its not the first time he's peed upstairs, because i didnt take him downstairs
i still think he should be man enough, brave enough to take himself downstairs and pee

in other news, he's given up jumping up on my dresser
and his nipping is much decreased, nowadays
so i have hopes for that

upset

ok, now i am a bit upset at kc
stupid cat isnt man enough to go downstairs in the dark and pee

stupid cat peed on my suitcase
i guess maybe i will have to break down and get a litter box for up here
stupid cat, anyways

why?

why should i forgive someone?
why can't i be normal, instead of so many hangups?

relaxing

today is Easter
the day that gives us our hope of the future

was over at t & j's for dinner today
the entire family was
got some nice pics
then, came back home and took some pics of the tulips
kc was having fun, outside
had a leisurely afternoon
and then, church this evening

its been a lovely day, weather wise
and a slow quiet relaxing day, otherwise

kc

kc is here grumping abt something
and i dont understand what he is saying

he keeps looking up at the dresser
and i say, stay down, you know better
and he walks around the corner
and looks up again
then comes over to my bed
hops up on the night stand beside my bed
and promptly starts to nip at me
sooooo
he gets squirted in the face
and spends the next five min washing his face and front paws

hopefully soon he will learn to not nip
the way he has been learning to not jump up on my dresser

hmmm, now he took off downstairs
and is yowling

change of subjects, here
i got back from work this evening abt 7 45 pm
and went out to my garden a bit
took the garden rake to it
and had to think as i was beating it to pieces
i'm sure the ground thot it was quite fine, with grass
and here i go, ripping it to pieces
and digging out the clumps of grass, and rocks
i am attempting to make the ground even better
to make it grow something better than grass
vegies, tomatoes, etc
but, it hurts, in the attempt to make it better suited to me

but,
it and i part ways, it can't argue what i am doing to it
where as, i can argue what God is doing with me
and i can fight it
and i can grumble and complain
and i want to hold onto the status quo
but God wants something better for me

work

well, when my phone rang at 11:02
instead of 11:19, i almost didnt answer it
and i guess i shouldnt have

cause my 3 day wkend is no more
s says, a called off for aj tomorrow
can you come in?
*head drops in submission*
yes, i'll come in
grrrrrr

at least its aj
and on sat
that means there wont be doc office calls
and that means that i can work on my charts that i have piled up
and i'll get a chance to document my late call from thur

this wk has been peds wk
i've had 3 peds in 5 days time
sunday, was a 6 yr old
and thru was an 8 yr old, and a 15 yr old
its odd, to have that many peds calls that close together

was out in the yard today
randomly snipping off parts of my rose bushes
and apple trees
and other green bushes
taking out some boredom and frustrations

congrats

congrats to my friend dp, on passing your bar exam :)
i knew you could do it!

i shall take you out to lunch, next time

disappointment

bossman decides to yell at me today
tells me that he is disappointed in me
oh?
what did i do now?
starting to get worried.....

since when do you buy raffle tickets? he asks
i didnt think you gambled, he says

i won 25.00 from a fundraiser ticket i bought off p at work
neat
used it to pay for block of fundraiser cheese that i ordered
which means that i am only out 14.00 instead of 39.00
not bad, not bad at all

but, that leads me to another question
and one that i suppose will be an md question, sometime soon
raffle tickets? = gambling?

weird

i had a really weird night, last night
kc woke me up, squalling and roaming my bedroom
around the corners, up on my bed, scratching at the magazine at the head of my bed
restless
well, i ignored him
he went down to hte foot of my bed
and i promptly woke up completely
i had this really weird tingle from head to toe
and every single hair on my body stood straight up
lasted for 30 sec, i'm sure
and kc
well kc hops off my bed, back behind the bookcase, along the wall and down the stairs he goes
and he doesnt come back

and then, i had kept having these dreams
i was home. i was still a kid, my youngest bro was like 6 or 7
and my bed was in the corner of my room by the door
and someone kept ripping the covers off me
but there was no one there
and mom wakes up, and says something weird, like give me back my blanket
and suddenly my bro was beside my bed
and i gave him the forearm that was suddenly lying on my bed

needless to say, i didnt sleep well last night

outdoors

today/this evening is a bit draggy
not sure why i'm feeling blue, that part of the cycle is over

weather is lovely
i should be feeling much better
SAD should be pretty much gone away for the season

got my garden plowed yesterday
now, i need to plant some radishes
and some onions

i need to get some ammonia too
lwd says that what will get rid of the moles in my yard
they are digging up my yard

the tulips are blooming
so, in front of my house right now, i have
hyacinth, daffodils, and tulips
all colors, too
it looks quite pretty, i must say

neighbors

i think i wore kc out today
he's sitting on the chair sleeping

we were outside for the entire afternoon
raking the lawn, almost done with that chore
and putting composted manure on the garden
he was busy running around, climbing, exploring
chasing bumblebees, that was funny!
he almost got hit on the road, that wasnt so funny
i found him, once, sleeping on the porch, in front of hte door
he wanted in!
poor cat

i've got really good neighbors
my one neighbor plowed up a part of my yard today
for a garden for me
and is coming back to harrow it tomorrow
and my other neighbor came over to chat,
and ended up helping me put the manure on plowed ground

life

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

thats prob pretty accurate, unfortunately

phone

in the middle of a story and the phone dies!
grrrr
oh well, he'll call back
am certain of that :)

date

i had a lovely dinner date today
d called, are you hungry for chinese?
sure :)
and he even treated me
it was quite nice, catching up with you again, d
here's hoping your baby doesnt come on country memories day!

and horrors
i found an unwelcome visitor this afternoon
in my hair, at that
i banished it, very quickly
i was so upset
i can laugh at my bro for his gray hair,
and he is younger than i am
but i dont want em!
no sir, none for me

today

was on an ldt today
and in the course of the conversation, the guy decides to tell me that i am abt 28, 29
well, that makes me feel good
cause i am 35
but then....
he has to go and spoil it
by saying i have a babyface
grrrr

got to run lights and sirens for awhile today!
had a call that i was totally out of position for
but, gotta say, i made it there, just as bls did
i followed them up hte road

did one set of drug outdates today
and have the other set to do tomorrow
i had 2 calls, that took 4 hrs each, so that took out a huge chunk of my day

had to run an errand for b from the ER too
that was interesting
get on scene, guy says, you looking for "g"?
yes
he's over there in hte truck, passed out
oh, well is he ok?
yeah, i was just over and checked up on him
so, of course i'm envisioning calling out hte cavalry to come pick this guy up again
go over, yell at him, guy comes over, says, want me to wake him up?
sure thing
and so g sits up, and proceeds to talk to me
and life is fine
at least from my end
my errand was completed

flowers

i found a red tulip partially bloomed today :)
gots hyacinth, tulip, and daffodil in my front yard just now
and all sorts of colors
yellow, white, red, purple
it looks quite nice

have been in a deep discussion abt clothing on md, lately
its got me sorta blue, right abt now

fighting

well, here it is
almost midnight again
kc and i are still fighting over him jumping up on my dresser
i'll be glad when he gives up

outside

i hate pms'ing
first i get grumpy and argumentative
then i get moody and insecure and bawl
never used to have that prob
good thing it only lasts abt 2 days total

was outside for awhile today, raking my lawn again
thats a chore and a half
it will look better, tho, when i am done
next thing will be to find a way to kill moles in my yard
anyone have any ideas?

then this evening, made choc chip cookies
they are better than the last ones i made
at least in softness
the flavor isnt quite as good this time, tho, i don't believe
i tried a diff recipe

kc loves it outside
he was a bit leery today, tho, cause it was chillier today
but, after he got over it, he was thrilled

again

am grumpy again
its that time of the month
instead of shutting my mouth when something irritates me,
i've been opening it

you would think that i would learn to keep my mouth shut at all times

working

well, here i am at work
got called in tonight
working tonight, instead of tomorrow daylight
so, i guess it could be a lot worse
i could be doing a 24
i am not at all enthused abt that

went to supper with g, after i got here
got my charts done from thursday's late call
and now, am here

i sat in my deck room for awhile this afternoon
with the deck door open, looking out into my yard
i need to get some outdoor furniture for my deck

kc was out exploring
he was outside for at least 2 hrs
he certainly likes it, outside
am hoping i didnt create a monster!

handful

kc is really being a handful, lately
i think i've finally got him to where he stays away from the dresser
he actually came over, and stuck his head under my hand
he wanted some luvin'

but now, he's starting to nip at my hand/arm
so, once again, out comes the syringe
and its getting a workout
he certainly knows what NO means
it means he better watch it, or hes gonna get wet

envy

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

yeah, i've been doing a lot of these things lately