mine

i need to find myself a bandana
to tie around my forehead
i get outside, and started pulling weeds
and i start sweating
and it drips into my eyes
and stings and burns
--uh--no duh!

and if i had a bandana
i could fix that prob very easily

the sun is just baking the ground
the weeds in my garden were quite hard to pull, today

supper tonight was quite interesting as well
if i make it again, there'll be some changes
i cooked some elbow macaroni
and heated up some tuna, mushrooms, chunked onion, italian seasoning
and then dumped them together
and dumped in a bunch of shredded mozarella chz
and it was ok
but next time.....
i'll skip the italian seasonings
and i'll use some other sort of chz
white american slices, if i have to

and of course, there's lots left
cause till everything got dumped together
there was enough for 3 meals, if not more

and my kc story for tonight?
i guess i dont have one!
cept that he is MY cat

the funny thing is
in the past, i'd hear folks talking abt my wife, my husband, my boyfriend, etc
and i'd have this little chat with myself
"call them by name, they are their own person
their being isnt tied up in you, they are NOT your PROPERTY"
used to be a pet peeve of mine

and interestingly enough
i consider kc my cat, but i dont consider him property
so maybe the ideas of my wife, my husband, as meaning property is wrong
maybe i need to rethink my thots
maybe there is a thot pattern there, that i havent picked up on

maybe "my" means an acceptance of the shared love

and not that kc can love me like a person does
but still......
i like to think that he loves me

lookie

look what i found this evening
well, actually g found it, and showed me


As seen on Break.com

plodding

am feeling a bit let down tonight
not sure why
i hate when i get moody
i feel like i'm just plodding along

had 3 calls plus one cancellation today
and my treatment of choice was a fluid bolus
btw heat exhaustion, dehydration, and a vasovagal response to circular sawing off his thumb
fluid saved the day, each time.

stopped in for chinese today, and instead of sitdown buffett, i got pepper steak n onions with fried rice, to go. and mr chinese asks, not sitting down this time? hmm, interesting :) he recognizes me from the other times i've been in. btw, the take out was better than the buffett, i do believe. i might have to start ordering, rather than the doing the buffett.

practically choked on my vit pill this evening
had to eat some banana to chase it on down
i felt like the geriatrics that i used to feed meds in applesauce

and talking of geriatrics
greg was in, picked up a w/c trans to LG
and while he was there, the litter trip came in, for the same place
so, i got to sit with the w/c pt, while he went up with r to get the litter pt
and truth be told
it felt like vvh days,
when i would park a demented lady by my desk, so that i could talk to her, and still do my charting at the same time
i used to be good at what i did
i could get every elderly male, and most every elderly female to do what i wanted them too.
i called it, vvh mode
talk slower, look right at the person i am talking to, often position myself a bit lower, so that i had to look up to them, lower my voice just a little, break up the task into managable pieces so that it doesnt overwhelm them, use their name frequently, allow them to lead the convo, but in reality, i'm leading......
and it worked wonders, esp if i had a bit of rapport with them
still works wonders, i must say, even if i dont know the person

i dont believe that i'm practically getting nostalgic abt long term care
i left there, completely burnt out, 3 yrs ago
interesting concept

no, cant be getting nostalgic
its just cause i'm in a funky plodding mood, right now

protective

well, miss nb's dad says no need for a picnic this evening
so she was over for a bit, anyways
petted kc, until he got tired of it
then i told her to let him alone now

funny, how protective i am of him
last night, she was tormenting him,
and i stuck up for him, when he hissed

sharing

miss neigbor girl has a bunch of plans for us tomorrow
and i'd much prefer not to do them
she wants a picnic
she wants a game of hide n go seek
she wants to stay at my place while gram goes to the dentist
she wants to some night camp out with me in my yard
oh, and she still wants the playhouse on her trampoline

she chatters and doesnt shut up
she makes me tired, just listening to her
she was "helping" me dig up flower bulbs

i guess i should be pleased she wants to spend time with me
i'm just not used to sharing my time

prize

well, according to the car dealership flyer that came in the mail, today, i won the grand prize, a 3day/2night luxury vacation. of course, 24.00 reservation fee required, must claim prize during event hrs, see dealer for details. terms apply. yada, yada

its all a gimmick to get a person on the dealership lot, so that they can sell you a car. well, i have news for them. yes, i am sorta contemplating another car, after all, my ac that i got fixed one wk ago, is not working again. gotta be a leak somewhere. but am not getting another car right now, my car works just fine for me, i shall just have to swelter. summer will soon be over, anyways, i heard katydids last night. and if they think that they can snooker me into buying a car, just cause i go to check out this grand prize thingy? aint gonna happen. they picked the wrong girl to attempt to force to buy a car.

but i am gonna see what this grand prize thing is abt
there's not much info on the flyer abt it, at all
and if it means what it says, i might be able to turn it in for cash
what do i need a luxury vacation for?

today

my day was a good one

couldn't wake up this morning,
musta been a carry over from hte night shift i did on thur,
but am all caught up on sleep now,
feeling much, much better, i must say

took a vol call with hometown, the first in a month, prob
stopped in at the office while at the hosp, talked with bossman and secretary
grumped at bossman for creating a monster in QA
mf gigged me for 2 spelling error, (tho and thot)
of all things.........
if you're going to bounce me abt something,
bounce me abt care, not abt SPELLING ERRORS
esp when i can spell, (hte doesn't count, i don't want to hear it!)

came back,
made myself a sandwich,
and then kc and i went outside,
i weeded awhile
am finding out i love to play in the dirt

miss neighbor girl came over and she chattered and ran and chased kc
and after awhile her dad came over to check on her, he talked for 15 min prob
he sat crosslegged on one side of hte garden,
and i sat on the other side,
crosslegged
and before he left, said, if i get tired of her, to send her home

oh, and mom stopped in,
gave me a few peaches from her several bushel she picked up today

after i quit in hte garden,
sat out on my deck with my computer for awhile, in the gathering dusk
was nice
and now,
am all cleaned up, laying on my bed, and am ready for md time

today

had a wreck this morning
before i ever got to central
last time that happened, we flew the person
and thats what happened this morning too
both times, the night medic went along

and my other call, today, was sorta interesting as well
2nd tachycardia in a wks time
only this one wasnt nearly as ill as the first one was
which is a good thing

i've given more meds in hte past 2 wks,
and meds that i dont normally give
its been an interesting time
most of my patients have been truly sick
instead of just a lock and labs and babysit to the hosp

chatter

worked last night
only had one call

then home, and crawled into bed
after i finally got up, i went back to moms
and ate some frigerator pickles
yum, yum
before she took me to pick up my car
(i got the brakes fixed)

and as i was headed home from picking up my car
i had this sudden notion to go help sis in law with her peaches
so i did
i havent canned peaches in a long time
long, long time

i'm really being domesticated, lately
even enjoyed listening to hte constant chatter of h
wow

and now, for some kc news
trying to decide if i dare let him play with the fan or not
if he'll get his paws cut off, or not
i have a box fan on the floor
and he has decided he likes the cooler air
so he curls up beside it, and tries to catch the blades
good thing the sides are on it
i hope he doesnt figure out how to put his paws inside
that just wouldnt be good

garden

was outside pulling weeds again
and getting all dirty

and i started thinking again
as the sweat was rolling down my face into my eyes

the last time i pulled weeds in this particular area in my garden
the ground was a bit too wet
but i pulled anyways
now, the ground is hard
and the weeds that came up, are much harder to pull this time

and i know i've used my garden as my analogy before
and here goes again
wonder if when i try to get rid of weeds in my life, before God's time table
(if there is such a thing as a time table in getting rid of sins)
wonder if that makes it that much harder to get it accomplished later on?

or maybe a better analogy would be
trampling on someone's tender heart
and making it difficult later on, to uproot sin?

what do you think?

behaving

kc is quite hte enjoyable and loveable cat
he's actually behaving himself outside, now
no more hissing and snarling at me

he likes the pompas grass
hides in it quite a bit
comes over and rolls in hte dirt in the garden
then takes off running

and when i was ready to come in
all i had to do, was call him
and he followed me right in

right now, he's at hte foot of the stairs
i think it must be cooler for him
its like he has to be as close to me as he can
but still stay cool

slacking

i'm slacking i know, in posting
but right now, the stuff that i'm thinking abt,
i dont really want to post online
much to deep
and
i just dont really want to go there

sunday

lovely sunday afternoon, today
am sitting on my deck
with my legs up
kc is running around exploring
i've got my laptop with me
the phone beside me
a quart of choc milk as well

weather is just perfect
listening to the birds
watching the robins hunting worms in my yard
hearing the creek all around me

i do believe i could take a nap

kc

kc was outside with me this evening
he was going crazy
rolling in hte dirt
rubbing up against me
running here and there
neighbor girl was chasing him
he ran inside
was sorta funny
he even jumped halfways up hte tree trunk
wonder if he'd get himself stuck up there?

poison

i could tell you that my day was much better today
but i bored you with those details yesterday
so am not gonna do it today

i guess i shall have to find something else to bore you with

the kid we flew today?
was lying in a patch of poison ivy
um, lets hope that i got myself washed off well enough
cause i have no desire to look like the kid in hte ER whose arms were polluted with it. that was really nasty

better

am feeling better this evening than i did this morning
this morning i was grumpy, irritable, was nauseated, had a headache, was totally tired and miserable
and just before i got to work the pager went
oh no, i wanted nothing more than to get to work, do my rig check, and get reaquainted with my chair
i beeped k
said, i'll be there in a minute, i'll take the call
so, in the pouring rain, i head down the road to t-town
hop in the amb, to find this guy who cant be feeling as badly as i was
did my thing, decided it was a stomach prob, not a cardiac prob
so did nothing for this guy, except a lock that wouldnt give me blood
got him to the hosp, turned him over to dr b
and got my supplies together, and we headed back to jco
laid down on the litter, and took a 10 min nap on the way back
and then, got out in the pouring rain
and in 2 seconds time was completely saturated
adn feeling even worse than before
if that was possible
straight to the station
and sat in the chair in the great room, and dozed
(was closer to the BR that way)

and finally, abt 2, i started to feel a bit better
got up, got myself some mt dew
got some food, took 2 ASA
choked down the burger
headache left
nausea left
and was only left with tiredness

and that was my day

icky

today has been an icky day so far
been grumpy, irritable, nauseated, headache, tired, tired, tired
had a call just before i got to work
and i declare
i think i felt worse than the patient did

neighbor

well, my little neighbor girl hasnt forgotten abt the clubhouse on the trampoline
i was outside this evening, had taken my garbage out
then walked over to check the grapes
and to pull off hte little apples
i know, if i want apples this yr, i cant do that
but i need the tree limbs to get stronger, first
and that was my solution
all their energy into growing tree, rather into little apples

anyways, she comes running over
and talks me into wearing her little lepoard skin striped purple shawl while she runs up to her grandmother's and gets me some of hte raspberries she has picked
oh well, i survived
and the berries were good