cuddling

it certainly is nice, having a male gazing into my eyes
and going ecstatic when i rub his neck and ears
and cuddling with me

(even if it is just kc)

mix-up

kc hops like a kangaroo when he is chasing a bug
its quite funny!

al, thanks for offering to take the call this evening
you went above and beyond the call of duty
after all, it was only 1811 or so

had quite the mixed up day today
took a call from fame, due to comm center error
then, they had to come way to the outer reaches (north) to rescue me
they were 3rd due bls
and then, they had gone avail, i was getting my stuff together, and hear county dispatching fame in place of me, for the county on the other side, (south). i called county, said, hey, put fame avail, im taking my own call. and that is when al beeped me. hey, wanna meet me somewhere? i'll take the call, if you want me to. you're the best, al, (for today, anyways!)

kc

kc thinks he has to be on my computer when im typing
he watches the mouse, he watches the cursor
he watches the pages changing
hten he gets on the keyboard, and i just cant have that

right now, he is lying on my bed, btw my laptop and my chest, while im typing
his motor is running loudly
every so often he looks up at me, and just stares straight into my eyes

empathy

i pulled up on scene this morning, to see 2 old ladies hunched over an old man, who was lying outside in the gravel, beside a car. both of them were crying. it had been dispatched as cardiac arrest.
it was just so sad
dunno why that hit me so hard, this time, it doesnt normally bother me anymore

pouting

kc is finally starting to forgive me,
he's lying on my bed, but hes not purring
he's had a hard day today

started with him being banished from my bedroom last night, cause he was chewing on electrical cords. i hardened my heart, and wouldnt let him back in. so hes outside mewing and scratching at the door.

then, off to hte vet we go today. he wont stay in his box (remind me to get a pet taxi, maybe bum one off of mom), so i have to hold him the whole way to the vet. and in hte waiting room. all this time, hes pretty quiet, but definately not turning on his motor.

into the exam room, doc confirms KC is a he
and his assistants start pouring stuff into his ears, then shoving big long q tips into his ears and digging around. kc tolerates it for one ear, then starts fighting, so he gets bundled up into a towel for hte 2nd ear. then some more stuff gets poured into his ears, and massaged in. and oh horrors, here comes the needle. he handled that quite nicely, i dont believe he even knew it was done. doc gives me some flea medicine-- a pill, and some liquid. he also gives me a pill, cortisone he said, if KC gets sore after his shot. not to give it, if he doesnt need it. and of course im thinking, he wont need it, he'll be a tough kitty, just like me. and the bill? yikes. 75.50.

and so now its time to head home. im not at all impressed with the idea of holding him the whole way home again, so i put him in the box, close the lid again, and dump the box upside down. now he cant get out, and i have to listen to him pouting. awww, kittycat, its ok. its ok kc, im here. by this time im really feeling bad, so i stop at walmart for a few min and buy him some toys and a brush. and another litter box, one with sides on, am already tired of cleaning up litter that he scratches over hte sides. and more kitten chow. spent 30.00 bucks on him, half of that, because i was feeling bad over putting him thru torture.

and stopped at hte station. hes not been to the station before. and he just mopes around. hes not inquisitive, hes not purring, hes just moping. he lays down at my feet, and there he stays. i finally take pity on him, and bring him home. and things just get worse

he eats his purina kitten chow, and jumps into hte new litter box. but hes still moping around. hes not chasing his tail, hes not playing with his toys, so, i decide to give him the achy pill, at the same time i give him the flea pill. he doesnt like the idea of me prying open his mouth and shoving a pill in, but they both go down, easier than i thot they might. then i go out to hte kitty room, turn around, hes not to be seen, hmmm? start to sit down on hte chair, its a swivel chair that leans back, and hear this horrid squawl. and KC takes off into hte kitchen. stops under hte table, takes a few steps, and hes limping on his right front paw. oh kittycat, im so sorry. and doesnt he run, as i come after him. runs into hte dining room, and up on the chair, under the table cloth. limping the whole way. im sorry, im sorry, kc

this time, he lets me pick him up, and out we go to the kitty room, to the chair. he lets me pet him. takes a full 5 min, before he starts to purr. right front paw seems to be ok, no psd's. then he takes off, back to his chair under the table cloth, and sulks. he stays there for hte better part of an hr, until i finally decide he has sulked long enough.

i went and got him, took him out to the kitty room, and he ate some more, used the litter box, and he followed me upstairs and onto my bed. and he curled right up at the head end, and he has been sleeping there for hte past hr.

kc is exhausted, hes had a really rough day

oh yeah, doc says, you're hooked already, arent you?

discipline

i felt so mean this evening
i sprayed kc with water, twice, when he was jumping up on my kitchen table. thats gonna be a no-no. he cant get up on my table, or my counters, or my computer. he just cant. well, kc got sprayed, and down he went to hte floor, and cleaned himself up. and as soon as he was dry, doesnt he come up to hte table again, and he got sprayed again. merroww, and down he goes. he made no further attempts at getting up on the table, this evening.
i felt like such a mean mom

then, i watched him chase this little ball of aluminum foil around and around and around. he likes it better than the ball i gave him. was quite funny. he jumps, and bats, and pounces, and his tail just twitches back and forth, and he chases hte ball, after he bats it away.

kc isnt gonna like me tomorrow
he goes to the vet for shots

tim n missie-- thanks for dinner today
it was very good

ice

i wanted a diet pepsi slushie today
so, i filled my glass with crushed ice from the frig
and put my soda it in
AND IT FROZE THE ICE TOGETHER
now, i have a chunk of ice the size of my cup
and a little bit of pepsi surrounding it

until i break hte chunk of course

abls

jon brought over some tulip bulbs, and some daffodil bulbs
we planted them, and ripped out hte plastic that was on the one flowerbed
i was gonna have a landscaping party, but i couldnt make it suit everyone
and then it sorta got too late, for this yr

and abt 8pm, the pager goes, atv accident, flew that one
and while watching the chopper take off, get paged out again, for diabetic probs
so, now i have 2 charts to write

the class today, was not quite what i expected
if theres a trauma involved with hte burn, take care of the trauma first
then the burn
they're saying, triage to a burn center within 24 hrs
ABCDEF
airway, breathing, circulation, be aggressive with airway, with early intubation
disability/neuro, exposure
fluids and foley, early foley as well (foley's not my prob!)
secondary survey, triage to burn center, tetanus
clean dry drsg to cover burned areas

i was so upset, 3 wrong on the test
2 i got wrong legitimately, i should have known them
the 3rd, well, i didnt care
what does the expected % of burn victims in a disaster have to do with care? why is it on the test? thats just plain stupid. makes much more sense to test on the rule of 9s, or the maintenance rates for fluids
but thats justme
apparently, theres a reason they want you to know that

KC is licking my arm, as i type

34

34 yr old's arent supposed to have brain tumors
34 yr old's arent supposed to have strokes

KC-- kitty cat

the contractor gave me an insight into KC's days when im not around
KC sits on the window sill by the table
KC wasnt supposed to be allowed on the table
KC's favorite activity-- chasing his tail
shes quite hte entertainment, he said

its really disconcerting to have eyes watching you dry off after a shower
even if it is just a cat

boredom

i was so bored at work today
i was actually rooting for the 5 00 jco call
i wanted something to do, a call to go on
ive not been wishing for a call, in a long time

oh, and was playing travel solitaire today, and taught it to the central folks
that may not have been a good idea
i get the feeling im going to be swore at, frequently.

was watching hte interactions of parents and kids today
theres some interesting concepts to be learned
altho, if i was a kid, i wouldnt want to be put down, even as a joke
come to think of it, i dont like the put downs that are followed by, just kidding
seems to me, theres always an element of truth in it, even if it is just a joke

my present

this was hte post for sept 20
blogger was being contankterous


was at the emt classes this evening as a pt actor
some good, some bad, some really pitiful, and one impressive one
the only prob was, i wanted to go to the bday party
unfortunately, foster had snagged me as a pt actor, a wk ago
i even tried begging my way out of it
apparently i didnt beg hard enough

got to show off a pic of my kitty cat to whoever would look, grin, grin
only to come home, come upstairs, and find out kitty cat had left me a present
a brown log, in the corner of my bedroom
not happy, not happy at all

one more day of work, then i have one off
been keeping caught up on my charts, this time around
yayyy for me!

today

the builder calls me on the phone today with some questions re: the house
then he says, did you just get a cat?
it was chasing its tail on the steps and fell off, we laughed at it
and made sure we kept the door closed

at least i know the cat isnt just moping while im gone

was at work today, had a nice day
one call, mva, poss knee/femur inj
seat belts and airbags are wonderful things

and to greg's for supper this evening
one of these days, i will return the favor, and feed them pizza
i mooch food off of his mom and stepdad, frequently
but only with an invite from greg

bday party tomorrow for josiah and annette
both of them are 2 now, well, josiah is, annette will be
they are 11 days apart
i threatened to take kitty cat along
my bro wasnt fond of hte idea at all

emotions

i believe kitty cat has found his sleeping quarters
on the window sill, at the foot end of my bed
what he doesnt realize is, thats the window the AC will go in next summer

was so nice to be greeted by my cat when i got home
i didnt realize i was so lonely
maybe thats why net relationships arent working, i want real life
altho, theres no real life ones in the horizon or distant past

here i go, being emotional again, and its not even pms time
stop it ry, just stop with the emotions
never had a prob with emotions before, why do i have to start now?

oh well, i'll be fine
me and my cat will be just fine
altho, i hate to leave him for 14 hrs when im at work
he's gonna be bored, he'll think i deserted him

retry

lets see if it works this time
blogger wouldnt take my entry last night
then when i tried to delete it, it wouldnt delete either
so i shut it down
this morning, its not showing up, so we shall see if this one works

my kitty is home alone today
i got called in to work this morning, shortly after 8
kathy's relief didnt show
the funny thing is, i was supposed to go in for a transport to ohio this morning at 0500, that got cancelled.
apparently, i am supposed to be working today
the transport would have been easy money.......

more reactions

more reactions:
you sound like a mom.... gaelynn
you cant be a (lastname), if you have a cat.... jon
you could have had a dog, that way i could see my dog oftener.... rachel

and my thots, as im playing with my cat....
this might be the kid i'll never have

gasp

reactions:
well, hess-lich.... mom
never in a million yrs.... mom
you dont want your house stinking.... dad
awww, isnt it cute.... joanna
you need a cat.... mike
come on, you know you want it.... carter
that better be an indoor cat.... lwd
your gonna have to let it out sometimes.... dad
purrrrrr.... cat

i am really becoming domesticated, theres no doubt abt it now
i have a pet
and gasp! its A CAT
havent been disowned yet by my family
we were always a dog family, cats were offlimits
and i wanted a boston terrier, still do
but, ive got a cat
somehow i always end up with something, not quite what i wanted
but usually just as good, and sometimes better

must be that nesting instinct thats making me domesticated
what have i gotten myself into?

helppppp

my computer is unbearably slow right now
it sends me all sorts of not responding messages
i cant have more than 2 things running (or so it seems), before it throws a fit, and wont work properly
ive tried antivirus, that doesnt help
deleted temp internet files, (not that many of them)
ran ad aware numerous times, no change
it says it doesnt need defraged, but am going to do it anyways
any suggestions?

so thats my rant for the day
in other news....
picked up a neat little gadget, tonight during hte life lion class
a life lion pin, with 3 flashing red lights on it
i know, im a kid at hrt, i love noise maker toys and lights!

had an interesting call, today, transported to jcblair
almost a 3 hr call, till i got back to hte hosp, and restocked

got to start several difficult ivs in the ER today
made myself look good
beth taught me a new trick with my finger

been a nice day, today

ranting

am thinking this is going to be a computer rant again
andy tried messing with the wireless at the station
and knocked us all offline. almost for good
took him all evening, to fix it
grrr

and then, i came home, and uninstalled AVG off my computer
and installed avast as my antivirus
avg never caught a single thing, you cant tell me i never got sent any icky stuff
so, i put avast on, andy says its much better, we shall see
ran it, then, this evening, and, it found 2 probs...
hmmm

oh, and opened up a can of worms, this evening
was to find the articles of incorporation for jeanne, for barb
so i called brian, to find out where they were
and it turned into a huge mess
but, i think its all straightened out, now
if he could have just told me where they were, and not gotten nosy
but, thats brian for you......

headed back to work in the morning
hopefully, the craziness wore itself out today

irritated

my computer is for the birds
its not letting me show cam, view cam, voice chat, and blog
it thinks im asking too much of it
i dont think im asking too much of it
it should be capable of performing whatever task i ask it to

i mean, i dont ask that much of it, do i?

heros

yetter is my hero, today
had a late call, and he saves me from a chart to write

and gaelynn,
had a lovely conversation via IM
i enjoyed our chat

greg, too
thanks for the dinner invite today
it was good to spend some time with you again

and the builders, (you know, has the key to my house)
they wont be here until afternoon, tomorrow
i can sleep in!

pappy john
fed me leftover chzburgs for supper, and apple pie
and sat and watched tv with me

i guess thats abt the extent of my interactions with folks today
was a quiet, slow, very relaxing day

now, all i have to do, is tell myself, that im content
which i am, i am
i did a few blog tests this evening, was going to post them here,
then decided that some were way too accurate to put here,
and others were way off base, dont need folks getting the wrong idea
so, i chickened out

fireworks and the fair

was on standby with lwd for the fireworks this evening
have never been that close to fireworks
we were directly underneath some of them
it was exhilarating to say the least

btw the noise, and the colors, and the patterns, i was quite impressed
it felt as if i could reach out and touch them

and so ends, the rothrock community fair, for another yr
ya know, when i first started in ems, that first yr, i went to the fair by myself
was all thrills, that all these ems folks stopped to say hi, and to talk to me
the fair was a big deal, when i was 18
and now, if it wouldnt have been for the fact that i was on standby,
i wouldnt even have gone this yr
not sure if i have grown up, or if i have grown jaded and cynical

i did get my hot sausage sandwich, and fries
and sat with the amb crew, to eat it.
sent brock after a soda for me, (hey, he said he was bored!)

babies

lwd and ml had a granddaughter this morning
they are proud as can be
now we've got a new mascot for the station

congratulations to the both of you

i went up to visit, this evening, and walked out of there semi jealous
its that biological clock again
i oughta just shoot that clock, and get it over with

keys

well, a strange man has the key to my house for awhile
the home repair guys started the improvements to my house today
first job...
fix the hole the bats came in thru
such a relief

the key to my house?
what abt the key to my heart?
sometimes i think its lost forever, so that even i cant find it
been hunting frantically for it, but cant seem to find it
the prob is, im not even sure what it looks like
or what i will do with it, when i find it

btw, happy bday, gaelynn334

listening

i listened to k this evening, and her love life confusion
she needed someone to listen to her tale of woe
and that was me, tonight
i dont mind listening, most times
its what im here for, to be a sounding board for my friends

and now, im listening to j, stressing out, cause he lost his girl

tim stopped in this evening, to pick up my computer
i had told him a long time ago, that he could have my old one
it got fried with lightening, and never worked right since
and im sure, he will be able to fix one thing, and it will be just fine
grrrr

enjoyment

its been an interesting evening tonight
i must say, i enjoyed it
its not often, that my evening turns out like this one did
smiles

stupid

ahhhhhhh
this is just wrong!



OK, this is much better

Overall, you scored as follows:
74% scored higher (more stupid),4% scored the same, and 22% scored lower (less stupid).
What does this mean? You are 22% stupid. This means...You are far from stupid. Congrats on a great accomplishment!





Stupidity Score Requirements

??? 0 - 9
Pretty Smart 10 - 24
Fairly Smart 25 - 39
Smart, but Stupid 40 - 59
A Little Stupid 60 - 79
Stupid 80 - 89
??? 90 - 94
??? 95 - 100

Much, much better

family ties

i had a bday party to go to tonight, after work. my aunt is turning 50. so, moms side of the family had an ice cream party. its sorta a king tradition, to find excuses to get together for ice cream and chips.

as it happened, i had a late call, abt 8 min before my relief was due to show up. went to wayne twp, and back to the hosp. went avail, abt 1945, and until i got the chart done, and the reins passed to my relief, it was abt 2030, and too late to go the whole way up the valley.

so, i decided to call her, and wish her a happy bday via phone. which i did. and ya know, i think she was quite happy i did. i dont spend much time with her, but when i was a kid, and my baby bro was sick, we kids were over there for a period of time. they sorta took us in, for that summer.

and to think, my oldest niece is almost 12, i was 12 that summer. time flies.

anger, and then some

found a comment this evening, in the middle of a story:
treat anger like a bomb
1. avoid it as much as you can
2. dont hang onto it too long
3. dont throw it at anyone else
4. defuse it carefully and prayerfully

interesting concept, since ive sorta had a prob with irritation lately

i think i might have a another prob of sorts, too
i believe foster is going to try to set me up with numerous guys
all cause in a moment of weakness, i let him know i was bawling
the even stupider thing is, i might let him try to set me up

first day

well, this is a new venture for me, and we shall see what it looks like
i know its not midnight, but, so be it