2005

here it is
the last day of 2005
the last hr, actually

the most amazing thing of this yr?
is clinton
you have become a very dear friend
thank you

the most addicting thing of this yr?
is MD
i've made so many new friends

the biggest step i have taken this yr?
is my house
i wasnt planning on buying property this time last yr
i'm glad i did

the strangest thing of this yr?
is kc
or rather, that i have a cat as a pet
didnt know i had it in me

the most intriguing thing of this yr?
is domestication
i'm actually enjoying cooking for myself lately
i'm contemplating a small garden

the most disappointing thing of this yr?
is my lack of desire
to give the station any of my time for all my duties there

the neatest thing of this yr?
is the creek
it rises and overflows
and promptly goes back down

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE

keys

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

neglected

kc has really been neglected this evening
isnt one of the signs of net addiction, neglecting your kids?

cat hair

i've got cat hair on my skirt
i've got cat hair on my bed
i've got cat hair on my jacket
i've got cat hair in my keyboard
i've got cat hair everywhere, it seems

and ya know what?
i dont really care
it's kc's hair, you know

there was a time when cat hair was the most disgusting thing around
and i was never having anything to do with that
my, how times do change

right now?
kc is draped over my arm
watching hte cursor as i type
one paw partially on the keyboard
eyes squinted partially shut

he's my kittycat

laughter

i had a lovely evening tonight
the single cousins had another game night
with my 2 aunts

got there a bit late, cause i came from work
we then played pictionary
it was quite hilarious
i got a wks worth of belly laughs a day this evening
can a person save them like that?
cause if not, i certainly overdosed on laughter this evening!

my cousin is going to bible school for 2 terms
leaving next wk, i believe
his comment was,
bible school is like a shoe
when you first get there, you feel like a heel
then they work on your sole (soul)
and then they send you away in pairs

he declares up and down, that he will not be leaving
as part of a pair
he intends to leave there, single and loving it

uh huh, cuz, i hear you
we shall see
we shall seeee

tormented

poor kc
not sure how he puts up with me!
or why he thinks i'm the best....

he's sitting on the edge of the tub again tonight
as i take my bath
(its an every night occurance,
i have gotten to enjoy the company while i bathe)
well, tonight
i dribble a bit of water on the top of each of his paws
then of course, i laughed at him
as he is shaking his paws, one at a time
licking them dry
trying to undo the damage that i did to his self esteem
funny!

poor kc!

christmas

this has been a very lovely christmas

talked to clinton, he had some very interesting information
well, information might be a tad bit too low key
he had a very interesting statement to tell me

was over at my uncles cabin today for lunch and supper
played acquire with my cousins and bro
lost of course, but thats ok
i still enjoyed my day

the family was here last night, as i said yesterday
we had an enjoyable time
i've got a good family, i certainly cant complain

i hope everyone who reads my blog, had a very lovely christmas

memories

its christmas eve, folks
um, i'm guessing you already knew that!

the whole family was here for christmas eve
all 16 of us, and kc too
kc wasnt impressed at all
he ran and hid for most of the night

i laughed at him, tho
i had gone upstairs to the BR,
and then over to my bedroom and gave him a bit of lovin'
told him he can come down, its ok
and then i went downstairs again
well, abt 2 min later he comes down the steps and into the kitchen
and he makes a huge circle in the living room,
and right back upstairs he goes
and the next time i went upstairs i couldnt find him
he was hiding big time.

poor cat!!
of course, dave laughed at him
he thot he should have brought a present for the cat
i told him, nope, you are not bringing anything for my cat
i know my brother.....
it wouldnt be a good thing

after everyone left, kc finally decided to come downstairs
and he stayed right next to me
he even attempted to jump up onto my back
as i was washing dishes at the kitchen sink
right now, he's laying at my feet

today has been a very interesting day
a day that i will not forget, (probably ever)

changes

its amazing how fast time flies
tomorrow is christmas eve again

theres been a lot of changes in me this yr
and in my life

ive bought a house
im becoming domesticated
ive allowed myself to become attached to kc

babysitting

am going to do something tomorrow that i havent done in yrs
i am going to babysit for my sis in law
every time i talk to her, she asks a favor of some sort.

am hoping she doesnt take too long, because i have a lot of station duties that got pushed back, when i got called in to work on tues. i've got work i have to do at the station. and instead, i'm wasting my time, once again, doing something for someone else, just because they asked me too.

i'm feeling very selfish, for thinking that my duties should take precedence over someone else's.

schemes

what can i say?
what shall i write?

my mind is whirling with thots of MennoLegos
and schemes and plans
a special thanks tonight, goes to theotherside for his assistance

better

life is much better today
am not nearly as grumpy
see, i said, i'd be over it in a day or two
(psst, i go in cycles)

am sitting here in my nice warm living room
on my easy chair
chatting on IM
listening to christmas music
(i love christmas music
come the end of hte holidays, i'll be ready for it to be gone
but am always ready for it to come back, next december)
kc is lying on the floor, gazing up at me
(not sure what he finds so fascinating abt looking at me)
waiting for my laundry to be dry, so that i can fold it
then will be headed to bed, after my shower

grumpy

am grumpy
am really grumpy
read at your own risk

its 11 pm, and i just talked to droll
yetter called off for tomorrow
whoda thunk it?
so i go to jco in the morning

why do i always waste my first day off, thinking i have the 2nd day to do my station duties? i should know better, by now. and why do i let my laundry for hte 2nd day, i should know enough to do it hte first day off.

its time for me to go hibernate until i feel better
until the grumpiness leaves

kc is curled up against my arm
poor cat must really get lonely since i am working so much lately
first 10 min after i come home, i'm tripping over him
he's against my legs, no matter where i go
so i pick him up, and scratch his ears and neck
and he gives me a kiss

ok, give me a day or 2 and i will be over this months grumpy phase

busy

i had a late call today
it came in at 1827
and french was no where to be found
it gave me 2 hrs ot
and in counting up my time this past wk
counting from sat thru today, which would be 9 days
i have 91 hrs
69 of them on this wks pay, (sun thru sat)
no wonder i want off tomorrow
no wonder kc is biting me
no wonder kc starts crying when i head to the door to turn off the light


i have station stuff to do tomorrow
which means another day away from kc
but i have to get that stuff done
and i better attempt to do it tomorrow,
cause if i wait until tues
it wont get done, again

don't tell anyone, but i'm getting tired of station duties
my hobby has morphed into a requirement
and all because i took my hobby and turned it into a job

i need a new hobby
altho some would tell you thats what my house has become
come spring i intend to do some gardening
and some flower beds

hehe!
kc's tail smells like choc icecream!
he is lying on my back with his tail down over my shoulder
onto my chest
and i can smell the ice cream
he's happy, he's purring up a storm

claws

clipped kc's nails again today
he cooperated quite nicely this time
i was impressed
altho i didnt take any chances, just mummified him in a towel
he merowed a time or two, thats it

so now, i wont have to worry abt him clawing me as much
until they grow in again

thank you

thank you greg, for listening to me this evening
i'm sure you didnt think you would be getting into that

tired

its snowing again
well, actually, it started snowing, for abt 2 or 3 inches
and now its sleeting

had to go outside, and shovel my walks after i got home this evening
cause i certainly dont want to do it in hte morning
i have to get up early as it is
gotta be at work at 5 30 AM
groan

kc has decided that he must have several bites of whatever i eat
tonight, it was toast and a bit of egg
and of course
i give it to him

who'da thunk it?
that i would let a cat make me share my food?

i was thinking this evening, as i was scraping my car to come home from work. if some guy would consistently clean the ice and snow off my car, and have it running and ready for me to get into a nice warm car, i think i would be in love. but who am i to fool myself. it'll never happen. no sense in even dreaming abt it.

am tired, am headed to bed

pipes

woke up this morning to frozen water pipes
hmmmm
thats not good
if i had been smart, i would have left the faucets dripping last night
it was quite frigid

so, i called my neighbor lwd
and after he got home from work
he came over and unthawed my pipes
(unthawed is my mum's word)
thanks lwd

so, now, i have 2 faucets slowly dripping tonight
hopefully that will solve the prob
and i wont have frozen pipes tomorrow

cheater

i cheated today
bossman said i could!

brought the truck and came home for abt 10 min this afternoon
i came up to check on the guys doing the gutters on my house
when i came home yesterday evening
things were really strange
there were foot prints all around my house

ummmm, theres not supposed to be anyone here but me
sorta freaked me out for a bit
until i realized, there's gutters on the porch roof
whew, ok, i guess i'm not being stalked after all!

so, i came home today, to check up on them, they were already gone
it really looks nice

and i am done with home improvements until next yr
next yr i will start on landscaping
gonna have meself a garden
gonna paint the board fence that is in the yard
gonna rip down the old shed
and the barn too

theres lots of old boards in the barn
been threatening to use the old barn boards to pay for the improvements
prob is, i have no idea how to find anyone who wants them

thanks

today has been an interesting day
3 calls,
all 3 of my pts thanked me for helping them
which is a neat feeling
really neat

the amb got stuck, way out in the middle of nowhere
had a 40 min onscene time

kc found a cookie of mine, and started to eat it
well, didnt he come begging for mine
and his is still laying on hte floor, less than half eaten
kc, you are supposed to be catching mice, not begging for cookies

snow

i left work this evening, and it was snowing
huge flakes, beautiful
i was looking forwards to coming home, and taking a walk on the road
in the snow, in the dark
with my camera, taking snow pics of my house

i was so disappointed
abt 2 miles outside of town, it stopped snowing
*pouts*

oh well
there will be other chances
at least i wont have as much to shovel

last

LAST...
thing you bought for yourself:  a skirt and blouse
gift someone gave you: marsh mallow cups today, from tim n missie, thanks   I love mallow cups
promise you broke: forgot to get a case of cups, like I told lwd I would
secret you kept: its still a secret, a few hints have slipped tho
person who called you: al, via Nextel push to talk
hurtful thing someone said to you:  I try to not remember them
store you went to: Wal-Mart, and bought a lovely christmas gift, at least I hope he likes it
thing you ate:  leb bologna n cheese sandwich, and celery sticks
time you were humbled:  today, when someone asked me abt my shattered dreams, I didn’t think it was that noticeable
person you told about Jesus: ??  me, I have to remember He does love me, its hard to accept
web site you went to: xanga, um, that’s where I found this meme and stole it!
person that told you "I love you": oh dear, I didn’t know this question was in here.  I have no clue, don't make me think to much abt it
person you told "I love you" to:  oh
compliment you got from someone:  I’m not sure at all
thing that made you laugh: watching tim n adam punch each other
thing that made you cry:  coming home from work this evening, thinking
time you had alone with God: same, coming home from work this evening, thinking
song you heard: dunno, a Christmas song I had never heard before, talking abt mary and her probably being ostracized for having a baby and not being married
trip you went on:  today, Harrisburg with a pt, otherwise, kentucky
person you had a really good talk with: kimberlin, if you are talking abt the other persons life, or Clinton, if you are talking abt my life
thing that tempted you:  Clinton knows
childish game you played: hugged my cat
situation that took you out of your comfort zone:  see the above, last time I was humbled
thing/person that made your heart stop: ahh, who knows, I’m sure I don’t remember
embarrassing moment:  really truly embarrassed?  I can’t remember.  I try not to remember them
person you knew got married: prob jenny b
nickname someone called you:  not sure, prob “beaner”, by lori from the ER
# you dialed: jco comm center
cd you bought:  well, it’s been months since I bought a CD, I certainly don’t remember
verse that spoke to you:  dunno, just seems so far away
thing you had or have the most struggle with:  lately?  My bio clock
friend you went out with: greg
person you knew had a child: my bro and his wife, cute little girl on thanksgiving day
guy you talked to/chatted with:  droll, at shift change tonight
book you read:  Elena, Strengthened Through Trials, by Harvey Yoder
thing you said without thinking:  I’m always sticking my foot in my mouth
night you slept really good: last night, till kc woke me up this morning
annoying thing someone did to you: how abt nice thing?  Mallow cups from tim and missie, thanks again
person you knew died: a pt from the ER, I saw his obit in the paper the other day
quote you heard that really inspired you: nothing really inspires me, right now
cd you put in your player: a Christmas CD
time you sat in awe of God:  I guess you could say, coming home from work tonight
person you chatted with: via IM?  Kimberlin
day you looked at your calendar:  this evening as I was leaving work, to find out where I am to be in the morning
thing you want to say to end this:  kc’s claws are sharp!  They hurt!

surgery

well, i learnt how to take my laptop apart today
the keyboard had kc hair in it, and my hairs
and it was pretty bad
i can say, no food or drinks tho

greg showed me how to do it, and i can do my own surgery next time
thanks greg :)

flavor

I taste like Bread. I am a staple in almost everyone's diet. Friends like me are a complement to any other friends I get on with almost everyone, remaining mostly in the background, but providing substance when it would otherwise be lacking. What Flavour Are You?

and no, i didnt cheat!

cookies

my mind feels blank tonight
it doesnt want to do any thinking at the moment
and i'm not sure why

i felt really domesticated for a bit this evening
was upstairs, sewing a few christmas gifts
and the dryer was running downstairs

am even contemplating making a batch of cookies for my neighbor
he plowed me out today
then came back after i moved my car and plowed the remainder
all i had to do, was shovel the walks
gonna have to find some way of saying thanks
a plate of cookies sounds like a lovely idea

i havent baked cookies in yrs, tho
i hope i still remember how
i always tell folks, its not that i cant bake,
its not that i cant cook
its just that i dont
that seems to be changing tho

kc has been really subdued the past few days
i'm missing his rambunctious ways
i havent seen any signs of infection from his neutering
but hes really been subdued
not sure whats going on

strange

today has been a really odd day
so many strange things happening
it started out with a dream,
--a very nice one i might add
and turned into a wierd nonsense dream, like mine always do
and then i asked someone what their christmas plans are
--and how they related to me
got notification today, from the bank
--that i have overdrawn my checking acct
that has never happened, ever, NEVER EVER
i guess i better watch what i do with my debit card
its a good thing tomorrow is payday
(kc is racing up and down the steps just now)
had a very interesting conversation with an old friend
--i had no idea
monthly meeting this evening at the station, elections
--almost got run out of office by write in votes
by a girl who is not capable of doing the job
(not that i would have cared, had it been someone i deemed cabable,
--i'd be quite willing to hand it over)
to walmart, then afterwards, preparing for christmas
stopped at McD's when i left there
--only ate a few fries
--parked my car facing town
came upstairs, got ready for bed
and realized its snowing, now, with a skiff on the ground already

btw, the -- are the oddities that happened today
its been a really strange day, today, really strange

furnace

i guess i shall have to invest in a sump pump before spring, after all
there was a bit of water in my basement the other night
apparently there was more water than i thot
since then, i've been smelling oil
and i turned the thermostat up, cause it didnt seem to be throwing heat
so i called the oil company today and they came out.
hmmm, the oil filter was leaking from a rust spot
and then, there was water in the pump, too
soooo,
i might have to get a sump pump, before spring
i really dont want to go thru this again

the wierd thing is, it still smells like oil
i gotta admit, its warmer than it had been
might have to go down, and turn the heat back again
he told me today, i've got a really old furnace

went shopping tonight
had to invest in a snow shovel and some rock salt
theres a winter storm warning out for thurs
i've never had to shovel my own snow before
the sidewalk belonged to the store, and they kept it cleared

k mart is just as bad as wal mart
spent more money than i intended
i found a picture frame
now i just have to find the perfect pic to put in it

and of course, the night wont be complete without a kc story
i was irritated at kc today
i penned him in the BR, while the furnace guy was here
cause i didnt want him in the basement
welllllll
didnt he go and make a huge mess on the BR floor
and then walk in it
and jump up on the toilet
and the sink
i wasnt any to happy with him

unfortunately, i guess he wasnt any to happy with me either
these past few days

home

kc is back home where he belongs

picked him up today, at 3 30 pm
and he wouldnt look at me
brought him home, and he promptly went exploring
totally ignored me for 50 minutes
even bit my little finger, when i tried to pet him

finally, i quit trying to make up with him
and i took my computer to my easy chair
and got online
before long, he came over
and crawled up on the chair, and laid down on my chest
and started purring,
and pushing up for my hand when i was scratching him
and life is good now, again

right now, he's lying on my feet, on the foot rest
and washing himself

am so glad kc is back home where he belongs

birds

was sitting at my kitchen table today
and realized
a bird feeder would be a lovely addition to my yard
i could sit and watch the birds
and laugh at kc trying to catch them thru the window

blogicide

oh... my... word.....

i apparently have been committing blogicide since the day i first posted abt kc

There's a stereotype that goes like this: When somebody running a website has run out of useful things to say, they post a picture of their cat. When they don't feel like writing one thousand words on their blog, there's always the option of posting Fluffy and pretending that she's somehow of interest to anybody. When the boiler of thought is out of steam, out wheezes a kitten.

Which leads us to the cabal of young on-line writers in Canada who are pushing the phrase "posting the cat" to describe the moment when a website passes its prime.

"The truth is that most blogs are just personal vanity projects of little consequence, the Internet equivalent of Christmas newsletters," Nestruck says. "And nothing pulls the curtain back and reveals that dirty truth more than when a blogger posts a picture of his or her cat."

of course, this blog is a vanity project for me
i wont argue that fact
its for me, am not writing to impress anyone
if someone wants to see what my life is like, they may do so
and right now, my life consists mostly of my cat

this is sorta funny in a way, tho
this article is the first entry that i saw,
when i did an msn search for cats in blogs
they sure know how to knock a person down!

hibernation

been a grump today
a really nasty one, too

so, i shall go hibernate
and not bother anyone, x for clinton

and hug my kc when he comes back up to my room
and hops on my bed

worried

am tired tonight
not gonna stay up very long
kc and i are going to bed early
we've been up since 3 30 am
well, i have, dunno how many catnaps he had today

i had a call from the vet's office this forenoon
taking kc in on monday morning, for his neutering
and ya know
i've been envisioning all sorts of things
from him not coming home on tuesday,
to him being so traumatized that he looses his cuddliness
i've been getting semi teary eyed abt it
and a bit worried
thats not like me at all

i've been saying all along, that kc is good for me
that he's teaching me a lot abt love
a lot that i haven't ever learnt yet, cause of my many walls

or maybe its just my pms showing
lately i've been a lot more emotional in cycles than i ever used to be

early

i got out of work early this evening
but will have to pay for it tomorrow morning
gotta be at work 2 hrs early, tomorrow
not thrilled abt that idea at all
am not a morning person, would much rather sleep until abt 11 AM
and dont wake me up, and expect me to be talkative!

FFMB, thanks for the comments this evening
i look forwards to marching with you all!

king

i suppose i should thank french and carter for talking me into taking one of those kittens. was thinking tonight of the first night kc was with me. he was just a tiny little thing when i got him
here is a pic of him

i brought him home, after stopping at walmart, and getting kitty litter, cat food, kitty treats, food and water dishes, and a bed (which he never uses, cause he uses mine). i put him on the floor, i sat down on the floor too, and he circled me. and he wouldn't come close. finally, he came close enough to eat one of the treats. and then after bit, he came a bit closer, and didn't jerk and run when i petted him. and then, he started to purr. awww :) maybe we will get along just fine :)

when i was ready for bed, i left him in the kitty room, put him in his little bed, and tried to barricade the door with a few boxes. after all, he wasnt going to sleep with me on my bed, thats just wrong. i came up, took my shower, crawled into bed, was online for a bit, and then shut everything down, and curled up, and was almost asleep.

and i hear this little mewing at the top of my steps
and into my room
how did that baby kitty know where to find me?
so, i picked him up, talked to him a bit, and didnt have the heart to take him downstairs, so i put him at the foot end of my bed.

and now, he sleeps right next to my head
if i don't watch it, he'll take over my pillow
he curls up in a ball as close to me as he can
he drapes himself over my arms
he lays on top of my back, when i am typing
he curls in a ball, almost inside out, his belly is facing up
he has to have what i am eating, i am a meanie if i don't give him some
he has become the king of my house

campaigning

read yesterdays comment from carol
i've been checking out her blog with a fine toothed comb
(well, not really!)
and i like the idea
i think she has a good thing going

vote for me folks!!
vote for me!