worried

i had a very pleasant evening tonight
justme and kc and the net
was on my easy chair with my feet up
and he was on my chest, sleeping
and i was surfing with one hand
for the better part of 2 hrs

i find it amazing, how much he wants to be near me
how much he has to know where i am
at how loving and cuddly he is

i hope his trip to the vet next wk doesnt change his personality
and even more importantly, he better be coming home
he better

never thot i'd be starting to get worried abt neutering a cat

domesticated

today has been a fairly productive day, as far as my domesticated days go
kc woke me up abt 6 30, wouldnt stop putting his whiskers in my face
so i got up, went to the BR, and shut him outside my bedroom door
and had a peaceful sleep until abt 10 30
had a lovely slow awakening, left kc back in abt 11
gave him some quality time, he was purring up a storm
finally abt 1130, i got up, got cleaned up, got dressed, came downstairs
made myself a box of hamburger helper
the last time i remember making hamburger helper was yrs ago,
i made a box, took it over to the station, glenn and walt helped me eat it
anyways, today i added some mushrooms to it, yum yum
some chili powder, some flaked red pepper, cooked it all together
it was quite yummy,
put the remainder into 3 bowls, for later meals
did the dishes and put them away
washed and dried my clothes and put them away
swept and mopped my kitchen floor, and the kitty room floor
left kc outside, then worried that he might get hit on the road
even shook out the rugs, kc didnt like that!
paid bills, i didnt like that
ordered four skirts from Blair, online
looked at the Dell catalog, decided to be content with what i have
so i pitched the catalog
left a message for the guy who is to put the gutters on my house
forgot to call abt an oil change appt for my car
called equivest, had them change my address
wrapped about half of my christmas presents

i'm feeling quite domesticated!
someone congratulate me.....

water

well, it definately rained today
there's no doubt abt that
coming home, drove thru 3 water ponds on the road that almost sent me and my car spinning
and when i got home, i could hear the creek
loud and noisy, angry, reminds me of the description in the Laura Ingalls books of the time she fell into the creek
so, i put my groceries inside the house, pick up kc and a flashlight and we go for a walk. the creek is above its banks, and theres water halfways to my house, i'm walking in squishy grass, and my feet are getting wet. lwd is standing on his bridge, with a flashlight. he said the water had gone down a bit. kc doesnt like the noisy water, he's squirming, trying to get out of my arms. next time, he will stay in the house, or i will have a leash on him.
and i checked my basement, i think that i need to invest in a sump pump. theres water leaking into it, but no depth.
just before i came upstairs, i checked the creek again, and it does seem to be lower, at least i cant see it, like i could earlier when i shone the light on it. at least i wont need to take kc and go hide at the station tonight

raining

its been raining all day today
dreary, chilly,
took a trip up to the hosp earlier today
did the drug outdates, and checked all the expiration dates for other equip
put a drug order in, for tomorrow
picked up another OT shift while i was there
on my long wk, to boot
its really raining hard, now

i have to stop in at the fame on my way home from work today to talk to shoop
i really don't want to, but i told him i'd stop

apparently theres a huge hazmat accident in the next county
apparently its quite the doozy, too
glad im not the hosp medic today
he's at the incident, getting drenched
and i am here in jco, dry and snug

net nanny

stopped at the station on the way home
and have come to the conclusion that net nanny is for the birds
we were to have a 15 day free trial
WELL, i DL it on fri, and today, it says its run out already
so, i go into the control panel, delete it
gotta use the password to uninstall it
and then back to my email
and find the link, and decide to see if i can cheat the system
it allows me to DL it again
and i'm grinning like the chesire cat
go to set up configurations, and the same notice pops up
your license is expired
GRRRRRRR
well, nothing i can do but uninstall it again
and i cant! it won't let me!
it wont let me use the password i had set up for the other one
and i didnt save the original password
and it freezes when i click the 'forget password?' button
so, i have useless copy of a free trial of net nanny on the station computer

lwd just laughed at me!

buck

kc is lying across my arms
and every so often he twitches his paws
his ears, his back
and keeps on sleeping

tomorrow is the first day of buck season
and its going to be a warm one
not totally conducive to keeping meat
i wont be involved in buck season opening day this yr
i've gotta work
in jco at that
first day of buck season was a holiday, basically, growing up
i can still remember mom making a hunters breakfast at 4 am
on monday morning
all sorts of people coming over to hunt
and by 9 am there was always a buck or 2 hanging
traditions have slightly changed over hte yrs
but its still a big day for us
and i wont be there, this yr

tonight, i'm thankful for electricity
i wouldnt be thrilled with living without it for any length of time

life

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.5
Mind:	5.6
Body:	4.4
Spirit:	5.4
Friends/Family:	3.4
Love:	1.4
Finance:	7.8
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Your Life Analysis:

Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score leaves room for improvement. You can make changes to improve your trouble areas, and this will bring you greater satisfaction. Focus on your weakest points and set about to change them. Do not delay your happiness and success.

Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward.

Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have a rather low body score, which means that your physical health is not in a good condition. You must put a higher priority on your body, focusing on nutrition, exercise, and stress reduction. Proper focus will lead to great improvement, leaving you feeling energetic and happy.

Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score leaves room for improvement. Consider making a concerted effort to redefine your attitudes and focus your beliefs. Boosting your spirit will lead to greater life satisfaction.

Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score suffers, yet it does not need to be this way. Strengthen your social network by reaffirming old bonds. Seek out new friendships, and they will provide you the reward you need.

Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope.

Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. You have a rather good financial score, which is not all that common these days. Keep doing what works. Avoid common pitfalls and save for the future. You will be glad you did.

another

been spending the afternoon googling cats n kittens
found some really cute pics
lots of them here

i want another kitty
kc is growing up so fast
and he's becoming a very pretty cat

shaddup
i know i'm sounding like a mommy now

kc

kc got his toenails clipped this afternoon
he was starting to leave marks when he jumps up on me
i am not thrilled with that
he wasnt to thrilled with the process, tho
i had to mummify him in a towel to control him

he definately knows what the word no means
he's been starting to bite my hand
and i yell no
every time he starts
wellll, he'll bite, and then it becomes a test
he bites like 6 times in a row and the last time he "merow"s
and jumps off hte bed and out the door and downstairs
and promptly comes right back up and heads over to the cords
that little snot of a cat
so, he gets banished from my room

right now, hes sitting on hte window sill
i'm on the living room floor with my computer
hes looking out the window
i had left him outside earlier
which is he always thrilled abt
he spent abt 10 minutes begging to go back outside
oops, now he's on my easy chair
chasing his tail and running up and down the back of it

intelligence

this is fun!
am introducing one of my fellow medics to the joys of IM
he said abt DL it, before i left work this evening,
and he must have gotten it accomplished
am feeling all kinds of computer literate!
even tho i'm mostly illiterate, x enough to get me into trouble

kc was shut in the broom closet for abt 5 min tonight
long enough for me to sweep my floor
and keep him out of my dirt pile
he chases the broom
and rolls in the dirt
sooooo
i fixed him!
shoved him in the broom closet,
he was busy squalling his head off
and then, he learnt how to push the door open
see, he's an intelligent cat
he takes after me, you know
so i put him in the BR, and latched the door
and swept my floor in peace
and then i left him out

job

this wkend might prove to be interesting
i may just have made a bitter enemy
lwd and i installed net nanny on the station computer
and my name is clearly visible as admin

i really dont want to go to work tomorrow
just got a phone call, there was a call off
8 hrs of ot, plus holiday pay for yest is a good thing
but i still dont want to go to work

kc is lying on top of me again
i believe thats his favorite spot, right now

tonight, i am thankful for the fact that i do have a job
and a job that i enjoy for the most part
even tho, right now, i'm a bit irritated with it!

nice

its been a very nice day today
a lovely thanksgiving, i must say

and tonight i'm thankful for my friend clinton

addition

new addition to our family this morning at 0503
Rebecca Jamie
welcome Rebecca

UPDATE
1130 AM

awwwww,she's soo cuuute :)
tiny round face,
lots of dark hair,
dark eyes peeking at me from swollen eyelids
jerking away when i tickle her feet
8 lb, 7 oz
21 inches

yeah, i had a call this morning,
and used that excuse to go on up to L and D to see her
Tim said i dare wake her up, so i did!

i know, i'm mean that way!!

today

today has been a different day, i must say
started out with a cancellation,
--a cancellation is odd
then 2 more calls, back to back
--thats normal for jco
and i got all my charts done, today, all of em!
--thats odd for me

k comes in this evening, to relieve me,
she's begging for a call,
--thats odd for her
she wants something to do, so her and i went to stop for supper
and of course, she gets a call, before her meal came
--thats normal in ems

so, i'm sitting there all by my lonesome in the DR section
and this middle aged couple comes in, sits down, orders
my meal comes, a club sandwich, ham
and the lady promptly calls the waitress over,
is it to late to change my order? i want what she has
oh wow
i hope you like it, lady
if you don't like it, i'll feel bad cause i influenced you
(even tho i had nothing to do with it)

so, i'm eating my supper, i get k's bagged to go
and this other lady comes over from the other side of the DR
i just wanted to tell you, i think emt's are the unsung heroes
--thats odd to be told that
(i can feel myself blushing)
well, thank you, and smile
then she goes on to say,
i was there when you took care of "pt's name"
and you knew exactly what you were doing

and to think, i was irritated at this lady, that day
cause we were inside mcdonalds, and she comes over and promptly says to mrs pt
is she an emt? and then promptly starts jabbering away to mrs pt
first off, i was irritated cause i'm a paramedic, not an emt
but i didnt set her straight abt it
it wasnt the time nor the place
and not really worth getting irritated abt
and the 2nd reason i was irritated with her,
was cause i initially thot she was a nosy bystander
until i realized she knew the pt and his wife, and mrs pt didnt mind her

(i think i need to go to a restuarant more often
after all, thats twice in a row, sit down, that i have heard good words abt me)

so thats been today
a bunch of oddities all strung together

and then, i called mom on my way home
here she spent all afternoon in jco
wandering from one end of the county to the other
looking for a fabric store
cause her ride didnt know where to go
and mom wasnt sure where it was either
altho she had a much better idea where it was
but the driver wouldnt pay any attention to her

and holly called from port,
i can go over there for thanksgiving supper, since i work tomorrow
i'm already going to greg's for dinner
am hoping its a quiet day

tonight, i'm thankful for people who take the time to tell others when they are doing a good job, or when they are impressed by their work

flu

Symptoms of BIRD FLU

The Centers for Disease Control has released a list of symptoms of bird flu. If you experience any combination of the following, or if you experience #6 as a stand alone symptom, please seek medical attention immediately:

1. High Fever
2. Congestion
3. Nausea
4. Fatigue
5. Aching in the joints
6. An irrestible urge to s*** on someone's windshield

snow

its snowing, its snowing this morning
and then i find this cute little poem in my email

I made myself a snowball,
As perfect as could be,
I thought I'd keep it as a pet,
And let it sleep with me.
I made it some pajamas,
And a pillow for its head,
Then last night it ran away,
But first--it wet the bed.

snuggled

the king is snuggled up against my arm
one front paw, and one rear paw draped over my arm
and his head resting on my arm
its a good thing i can type and not disturb him

tonight, i am thankful for hte net
its a lovely thing, Instant messaging is

mouse

i'm sitting here, quite pleased with kc
he might turn into a mouse catching cat yet!
i found a dead mouse in the downstairs bathroom
and i sicced kc on it
he's having all sorts of fun with it
am hoping its a good training aide for him

the thing is, i'm not sure why there was a dead mouse in my BR
after all, i dont have any bait out, just traps
(the traps are worthless)
i'm wondering if he didnt kill it, sometime last night
and in playing with it,
it flung under hte door into the BR
where he couldnt get at it

but i gotta admit
i'm not at all fond of him flinging a dead mouse all over my kitchen floor
and i might think twice abt letting him sleep on top of me

thinking

been thinking abt starting a 2nd blog
and dedicating it to wt control
am thinking that it might be a good thing for me
i'm sure i'll think abt it for several more wks
then suddenly, i'll get started and do it
and not even know when i made the official decision

kc is sitting beside me
his butt against my arm
and he is grooming himself
i think he spends half his life grooming
if i was so diligent
no one would know me!

i used to not like cats
my main complaint was they were much too clingy
they come and rub against your legs
they want attention
(i hate to be thot of as being clingy)
the really funny thing is
i'm so glad kc is a loving cat
i'm so glad he comes to meet me at the door
i'm so glad he sleeps on my bed with me
i'm so glad he loves to be petted and stroked
i'm so glad he is always underfoot
he's teaching me a lot, these days
i just hope that it isnt all wasted

tonight, i'm thankful for my cat, kc, kittycat, the king
he has quickly become a major part of my life

wait

Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait

How Do Men See You?

its worth the wait?
hardly

life

How You Live Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

hmmmm
maybe so
not sure abt the variety of friends, and changing friends quickly
i like to think that i am more loyal than all that

sleep

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are confident and ready to tackle life. You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance. You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines. You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

i have 2 sleeping positions

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

see, i think this 2nd one suits me better
i often fall asleep on my back
but till morning, i'm always on my side

blog

Your Blog Should Be Blue

Your blog is a peaceful, calming force in the blogosphere. You tend to avoid conflict - you're more likely to share than rant. From your social causes to cute pet photos, your life is a (mostly) open book.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

hmmmm
my blog is blue!

heat

been a nice sunday today
i worked, got all my charts done
certainly helps to have a template
i shoulda done that a long time ago

i put another cover on my bed this evening
its a tad chilly in here
but I AM NOT TURNING UP THE HEAT
gots too much oil to pay for as it is

sure is nice to have my own place
but theres scads of bills that i didnt have at the apt
well, i should say, they were included in the rent

tonight, i am thankful for my good heater in my car
it was 27 going thru town this morning
and my car was snug n warm

interesting

i had an interesting occurance today
was sitting in Wendy's, eating dinner with chris
and this lady comes up to me, and says
"you saved my husbands life
you probably dont remember, but we havent forgotten you
2 yrs ago, on thanksgiving day"

oh wow
its nice to have some verbal feedback every so often

company

its been a different day today, i must say
i had 2 sets of company after i got home from work
missie gave me some strawberries that her hubby had gotten
so, i called up mom, said, if you bring some icecream
we'll have strawberries and ice cream after i get back from work
and didnt she make a cake, too, and bring it over
her and dad and jon

heres a shocker
the first thing dad said, as he came in the door
wheres the cat?
umm? you like my cat?

and after they left, dp came over
sat and talked to him for awhile
abt various aspects of station life....
we both agreed, we need to make a yet-yet run some night

tonight, i am thankful for tim n missie
those strawberries were very good

and i'm thankful for my friend dp

oh yeah!
had a heart stopping moment this evening!
auto fire alarm, at the station address
(we had a fire, several yrs ago)
box was promptly put avail by chief 18

comfort

threw away my first pair of 2 wk disposable contacts this evening
(its been 4 wks)
i got a 6 month supply
which means, i might be able to drag out that 6 month for an entire yr
suits me just fine

had a conversation with MA this evening
he came to me, asked if i wanted any extra work
oh
"you're a good worker, you're a good medic"
boy, do i have everyone fooled

made myself some comfort foods tonight
ever have something that you like to eat when you are sick?
not sure why i was hungry for stewed crackers
and poached eggs tonight
but i was
so, i stopped at klines
bought eggs, butter, milk, saltines, and bread
and made myself a dish of stewed crackers
and 2 poached eggs
it was really good, if i do say so, myself

i even soaked up a piece of bread for the king
he ate it right up!
never thot i would be feeding kc people food
he was only gonna eat cat food!
hah
that certainly has changed!

tonight, i am thankful for my parents
in particular, all the help mom gave me in getting my house together this summer

link

thanks greg, for sending me this link
have you ever wondered what garbage collectors do on their route?
i havent laughed this hard in months
i've been quite intrigued by that link this evening
been showing it to everyone who will listen to me babble on!

flurries

i'm laying here on my bed, with my laptop
looking out the window, watching it flurry
its a lovely bright day out,
i'm guessing its going to be cold
kc has been lying on my butt or my back,
or against my side,
all morning while i have been surfing the net
i believe he is starting to get antsy now
must be time to take his example, and get motivated
after all, i have station duties to do today
hopefully, i will have the office to myself
not have many folks in and out while i'm trying to work

struggles

i ran across a blog the other day, that describes me very well
here is the link to the entire posting

I struggle with pride... I don't like for people to see my weaknesses. I don't like people to know that I am hurting. I don't want people to see what I am struggling with. I will tell people superficially what is going on but I generally don't let anyone in to the deeper part of me... Why??? Embarassment... which equals pride. What might they think of me??? What if they don't like me any more??? What if they judge me??? This makes it really hard to develop friendships past the superficial level... I do have some friends who know more about me than most people but even they are not allowed into the inner most part of me. This probably stems from past hurts that have occurred in my life because I have, like most people, have had people stomp on me. There have been times when I have been vulnerable and others have used it against me later, thus I put up walls.

Now if I want to be completely honest... which I do... there is another reason for the walls I put up... and that is to block the view. I don't want people to see the weeds of destruction that have taken root in my life. If no one can see through the wall then I don't have to explain my weeds... Weeds that have or eventually will choke my spirtual life... will choke my walk with God... will eventually choke me, leaving me empty.

Now if this isn't destructive enough, I also try to build walls that God won't be able to see through... Ridiculous I know but true just the same. I pretend while I pray that everything is okay, I ask forgiveness but my spirit, my heart is not broken...

What's My Mission goes on to say, that she has discovered that

God will not reject me. Though I am vile... though there are things in me that are disgusting, repungnant and downright unlovable God still loves me!!! Though my sins put a nail through His son's hand, God still loves me. There is nothing that I have done, or will do that will cause God to love me any less than He does right now. I can be true and honest with Him, keeping nothing "hidden" and He will still love me.

right now, i have a hard time even believing that

nostalgia

am sitting cross legged on my living room floor, with my laptop
listening to a bunch of old tapes that i brought with me when i moved
these tapes are 20-25 yrs old
i found someone who will transfer the tapes to cd for me
so i'm going thru, and deciding which ones i want to keep
which ones i dont need
and making notations, cause a lot of the tapes dont have any labels on them
its sorta fun!
i dont know what i am gonna hear when i put a tape in!!

most of the ones i want to keep, have sentimental value, more than anything, several of them are from when i was a kid,
mom and dad were friends with a couple who had 5 girls, and they would always sing when we were together. not sure if they will be happy that i am making an effort to keep them even longer!
and i found a tape that was recorded from a church service
might put it in, might not, depends on my available space
there is a tape that i havent found yet, but i know i have it, of high german singing that mom recorded a LOOOOONG time ago
that is definately being transferred to cd

its really taking me back in time, listening to these tapes
life was so much simpler and protected when i was a kid

direction

havent quite decided what direction my brain is going to take this evening....

had a good day today
3 calls, almost back to back, one really sick guy, the others were semi
ate at stop twice, today
one of central's guys beeps me, wanna go to bkf with us? i'll buy your bkf
hmmm, sleep or have someone buy my bkf?
i think bkf won
then missie ordered from stop, so i had a salad shortly after 6

i ordered a book, the other day, and it came today
beauty for ashes, by joyce meyer
i looked thru it tonight, briefly
and am almost scared to study it

interesting

two things of interest this evening
want them in the same posting?
or seperate?

guess i shall have to make up my own mind
ok, same posting it is

1st one:
i beeped al this evening, and asked, are you busy?
his response? i'm never too busy for you
awww :)
of course i told him, you just made my day!
and he did make my day.
i grinned the whole way home!
ok, ok, i'm still smiling....

and then
even more amazing
i opened my door, reached down for kc, and said
there's my honey
me? saying honey? that just doesnt happen

in other news, the truck is inspected and licensed
as of today
almost had the first call in it
if the pager had gone 20 min later, i would have had the first call
not sure yet, how the truck will work out, but i shall give it a try
gonna be a bit confusing tho, cause i'm used to calling the suburbans, trucks

am jco in hte morning,
chris asked for an extra day, so i gave it too him, and took holiday time
well, didnt he call off today
so, now, i have to go in after all
grr, i was looking forwards to a day off
oh well, at least its my OT wk

and
the king is lying on my rear, just now
sound asleep
his paws are jerking

tub

kc certainly likes to watch me take a bath
he sits on hte edge of the tub
puts a paw down into the water
and promptly licks it off
puts his other paw into the water
brings it up, licks it off
leans his head way down
so much so that i think he's going to dump into the tub
but he doesnt
he looks at me
and i smile at him, and say something silly, like "the water's hot"

line

i've been arguing with myself lately
what is hte fine line btw fighting to keep a friendship when you feel someone is pulling away
vs, being whiney and clingy and all those things i hate in a girl?

i hate being whiney and clingy so i shut up
which is a self defeating cycle, cause that hastens the end
i hate pushing myself onto someone if they dont want to spend time with me
i refuse to do that
which means, once again, i put someone else's wants in front of mine

but by the same token
i hate feeling as if i am a burden, and they are only doing something cause i want them to

maybe i do need to move to montana with kc after all

curled

well, i got the patch done without too much interference from kc
and right now, he is curled up on my chest
and i have to look over top him, to type
he is so nice and warm

supper

mom, dad, jon are coming over for supper this evening
gonna have hamburgs, fried squash, n noodles

mom had made the comment when i first moved over, that we should try to get together every week. well, i wasnt thrilled with the idea. but, lately, its been pretty much every other wk, when i am off for hte wkend. and most times its cause i say, whats for supper, or its like today, what are you doing? wanna bring some hamburg over and make it over here?

i still have to finish the quilt patch, before they get here
i had it all done, last evening, wasnt pleased with the brown wording
but wasnt in the mood to rip it out and do it again
welllllllll
i picked up the envelope to put it in
and the envelope says, navy blue or black wording
*wilts in dismay*
so, i ripped out the wording last evening, now i have to finish it
it took longer to rip it out, last evening, than it had taken to actually embroider it
oh well, i wasnt happy with it anyways,
so i guess its for the best.

goofy

i just caught kc drinking out of my toilet!
goofy cat

update

jb was in with an update on terry today
both good news and not so good news
"he's being a jacka**"
he's gotta do it his own way
thats always been terry

kc

kc is laying across my arms, as i am typing
and he just passed gas
peewwww
i guess i should stop giving him bites of my food

he still isnt catching mice
he's slackin'

he is thrilled when i come home in the evening
he's gotta be under my feet, so much so that i cant walk
i can't walk without kicking him

peacefullady

this is to peacefullady, since i cant comment on xanga
happy anniversary, and may you have many more wonderful yrs

net

i was busy chatting away this evening
and suddenly, my cam goes blank
and then aol starts trying to reconnect
and yahoo
ok, whats going on?
this is wierd
picked up my phone
no dial tone

hmmm
i have lights
theres no storms, right now

so i got up
walked over to hte modem
the internet light isnt on
reached down
wiggled the phone jack
and it popped into place

kc had just come racing upstairs and turned the corner
not 30 seconds before i lost the net
kc, kc, kc,
you're supposed to catch mice, not kill the net!

oh, btw, i set 3 traps this evening
better have caught several till morning

bed

i'm grumpy
i'm whiney
i'm clingy
i'm exhausted
i'm going to bed

funny

this was just too funny!
kc was trying to jump from the card table to the window sill
only the card table was just a bit too far away
he'd lean way out, as far as he could go
then he'd back up, hop to the other side
and lean way out
and meorow a bit, and try it again
he'd look over at me
and i'm just grinning at him
he must have tried that for 5 minutes
finally he got brave enough
jumped to the window sill
and smacked his head on the window
and fell to the floor
course i started laughing
he just sat there
and looked at me
and pouted

uh oh!
he's mad at me
he's back to playing with the cords
and he had been doing so well, too

lily

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

mice

on my way home from ed day tomorrow, i need to stop at walmart and buy mouse traps. not only did i see a mouse yesterday, today i found mouse droppings on the countertop
not thrilled, not thrilled at all

sooo
kc, get to work!
catch them mice
i'll let you go out oftener, if you do!

he was thrilled with being outside, today
and after he came back in, and i shut hte door
he stood at hte door, squalling to go back out

looks

you know, for as much as people like to say that looks arent everything, and that women shouldnt try to make them self look nicer, or that the only reason that girls wear makeup is to impress other girls, cause the guys dont care for makeup on a girl, i've sure been proving that theory all wrong, lately.

since i started wearing my contacts, i have heard several very nice comments from guys and girls alike. i even got a wink from one, as he was telling me, you look good without glasses. has that happened before? no.

once again
looks are important, and those people who say they arent, are just fooling themselves. you know as well as i do, the pretty girls get all the attention, the plain ones have to wait for someone to see beyond their face/body, to find the inner person, and that rarely happens. the plain ones want to be told they are beautiful too

yes, i'm being a grump tonight
i'll be over it soon

purrrrr

the king is having all sorts of fun, just now
running full speed thru my house
wrecking the place

i have a job for him, tho
he just doesnt know it yet
i saw a mouse in my kitchen
guess i cant get him declawed after all!

he comes to meet me at the door when i get home from work
and snuggles in my arms
and purrrrrs
for abt 3 min
then he is ready to have me give him food
fooood, i want foooood......

its so nice to be greeted by someone who loves me
ok, ok, something
its just a cat
i know
but it still nice to be greeted by him

love

chris says today
"one of my worst fears is having both my wrists broken
can you imagine having to have someone else wipe your *** for you?"
he brought in a guy who broke both wrists
the first comment chris says to me...
he better hope his family loves him!

sooooo.....
i guess love is when you wipe someone else's rear cause they can't

again

today has been a not so good day
***** (name still protected by hipaa, at hte moment)
***** fell down a flight of steps
and its not looking good
i have never seen jm or jb cry
until today
jb says, its matt all over again
and he is right
same head injury scenario, just a different cause

trick

kc learned a new trick today
he used the handles of hte drawers to climb up to where he could see what i was doing at hte kitchen sink
ummm
nope
not gonna have that
not gonna have a cat on my kitchen sink

but i gotta admit!
it was funny, watching it the first time

king

today was a busy day at work
started at abt 830, and kept it up until almost 5
i got dirty, almost had to climb up on a log truck
i gave more ntg today, than i have in the past 5 wks combined

kc sleeping beside my pillow just now
he had been curled up on my back for the longest time after i crawled into bed
clinton calls him, the king
that name just might stick
king, k, kittycat, kc

i think kc has a good idea
sleeping, that is
i believe i am taking his advice, very soon
and headed off to bed

hopefully, i wont think to long and hard on if i want loved or liked
both of them seem selfish, when they are relating to me
i want someone to like/love me? that sounds selfish.
who knows

interesting

this is interesting
am hunting why i'm not able to upload pics
as to why i keep loosing my posts in opera
blogger says, they recommend mozilla or IE
but, ive uploaded pics via opera before, i believe
well, maybe i havent...not sure

i dont wanna switch
i like opera

testing

testing testing
blogger in opera was being icky today
this is in firefox

busy

a word to the wise
remember this phrase from last night?

and hopefully if things stay *sh, don't say it*

wellll,
im here to tell you
thinking abt writing it, is just as bad as saying it

busy, busy today
i got to go 4 wheelin'

embroidery

ive got a quilt patch to embroider for mom before the 13th
so, am gonna take it along to work tomorrow
and hopefully if things stay *sh, don't say it*
hopefully i will be able to get a good start on it

its basically a basket of flowers with all our names as the handle
its sorta cute, haven't quite decided on the color scheme yet
i did one some time ago, for another quilt, that turned out pretty

kc certainly enjoys watching me in the tub
tonight, he jumped up on the toilet tank
and watched every movement i made
back and forth
i felt like i was being scrutinized
"you didn't get that spot clean, try again"

nesting

in the space of 7 minutes today, 3 people told me that my house is looking very nice. as i was leaving the bank, the loan officer congratulated me. then as i was walking across past klines to the post office, my former neighbor calls down to me from her porch. "haven't seen you walking the streets in awhile, you're really making it look nice out there." *smiles*, why thank you. and as i came out of the post office, met up with another town resident, who told me the same thing.

i'm glad folks are pleased with what i am doing to my place. they can't see the inside, they don't know what the inside looks like, but i'm pleased with the inside as well. not only does it look much nicer than when i bought it, (its amazing what a floor and some wallpaper will do), but i'm doing a much better job at keeping the inside clean and neat than what i did when i was at the appt.

i find it amazing, the difference in my outlook since i bought my place.
i wasn't aware until i moved, how much i considered the appt as being only temporary. and i was there for 9 yrs.
i'm becoming domesticated

dunno, must be the nesting instinct in me
if no guy is going to provide a nest for me, i'll just make my own nest.

love

i was sitting in my easy chair with my computer for awhile this evening, after i got back from the one call.
kc crawled up the back of the chair
and soon he was curled up on my chest
so nice and warm
and abt 20 min later, he rolls over
and stretches out on his back
and he is in my arms like a baby
and continues to sleep

and i looked down into his face
as he is there sleeping
and realized that he is teaching me a lot
its difficult for me to accept the fact that someone might love me
just as difficult as allowing myself to love someone
after all, im basically a loner
but here is this cat
ever so glad to see me when i get home
he is quite the loving cat
curls up on my chest
doesnt like me to be behind closed doors
he sleeps next to my pillow
the other night, he was on my pillow, partially

men

time for another quiz

You Are a Good Student of Men

You're pretty good at knowing what men are thinking But you're not dead on 100% of the time Let your guy off the hook sometimes... because you may be reading him all wrong!

How Well Do You Understand Men?

somehow, this seems all wrong
i dont even understand myself most times
much less guys
(even tho i like to make them think i do)

but, on the other hand, dp told me several times
i should be a psychologist

which reminds me,
i have to send him an email, apologizing for something that i did, that he is going to blame on lwd and its not lwd's fault at all.

counter

i believe i have found a counter that i like
go to the very bottom of hte page, and check it out

popups

bear with me here
am trying to put a site counter on here
but i think it added popups to me
which i will not have
so, gotta find out if i can turn off the popups
(after i log in properly to coolcounters)
if i cant turn off the popups
then coolcounters GOES AWAY

decrepit

im getting old and decrepit very fast

1. i have a sore leg from when i fell off the medic truck (i think i did that right, thanks eugene) now that the swelling is going down, and i can finally touch it without going thru the roof, theres a lump there. right where i smacked it. i stood outside and whimpered when i did it, and that's unusual, cause i don't normally verbally express pain.

2. and, now, my knee, same leg, has been bothering me for several days, close to a wk. i have no clue what i did to it. its quite difficult to get down on my knees for pt care, found that out yesterday, and just as hard to get back up again. the entire joint hurts. i can even feel the difference, just going up and down steps. and its stiff.

3. and, on hte same leg, i have numerous claw marks from kc trying to claw his way up on me, so that he can get up on the table to see what i am eating.

i think i just need to cut off my right leg and get it over with

its a lovely day, kc is sitting on the window sill drooling over going outside. i guess i will let him go outside for awhile today. gotta get up and get motivated now.

oops

oops

i just realized that when i changed the internal clock on blogger last night, so that it is correct with my current time, that it changed all the times that i manually changed on each entry. soooo, that means,that prior to this, each entry says its 3 hrs ahead of when it actually was written. and i am NOT going back to each single entry and fixing them one by one. and i am keeping the correct time, i'm not changing blogger's clock back to the wrong time. SO.... deal with it

(well, i might go back and change some of the most recent ones manually)

domesticated

made myself an egg/mushroom/cheese omelet today
it was pretty good, if i do say so myself
it would have been better, had i put salsa on it
but i ate it as i made it
that be the first i have made myself an egg in yrs
and guess what!
i still remembered how!

and i did my laundry this evening after work
washed and dried it
i havent been able to do laundry while at home, since i moved out of moms house in 96. always had to take it to the laundromat, or to the station. i believe i shall like this new phase in my life.
i'm certainly becoming domesticated in my old age

i believe that kc is learning how to fetch
which will be quite interesting!
right now, he's sleeping beside my pillow
i reached over last night, and put my hand on him,
and he promptly starts purring, and stays asleep.
it was sort of a warm and fuzzy moment

lovely

today has been a lovely day so far
weather is lovely, almost perfect
trees are turning lovely shades of colors
had a lovely conversation with C
think i can continue using lovely in each line?
i think thats a lovely idea today
to use lovely in each line i write.
had a lovely nap this morning
that lovely cat of mine was my alarm clock this morning


hehe! forgot to set my alarm last night
and woke up at 6 AM today
i need to be at work at 6:30
and i have a half hr drive to get there
poor kc didnt get to have his morning hug
or morning bonding time
and he was my "jobsaver" this morning
i shall have to make it up to him this evening.
maybe give him some canned cat food, rather than dry food

again

gonna try to post this pic again
didnt work
and just now im thoroughly upset at him again
he delights in testing me with those cords